I Love You
This is a song sung by my favourite singer in DBSK - MAX CHANGMIN.
I can't help but swoon when he sang this song. Heehees. =DD
But e lyrics are meaningful.
Here's another song by another DBSK member - HERO JAEJOONG
Both songs speak my mind.
Enjoy. =]
Footsteps
Personally, i think e word 'hate' is too strong a word to use.
Yet, i guess when one can't love, one starts to hate instead.
I really love e song by Jaejoong.
My vision starts to blur whenever i heard this song. T.T
Reminded me of some stuff.. Oh well.
Here's another by DBSK member - XIAH JUNSU.
RAINY NIGHT
All of e songs that i have posted up from DBSK members are live performances.
And thats how good they are.
Their dances are just as nice as their voices too. =DD
Started working at admin on thursday.
I have to faced e computer from 9am to 6pm.
Its tiring and e work is quite repetitive.
Yet, I am grateful that i have a job.
I have forgotten how tiring working is.
Update more next time when i am less tired. Hahas.
In e meantime, enjoy this two video by all of DBSK.
They are a korean band, yet they can sing in many languages.
So talanted. E videos i posted are songs sung in either jap or korean. =]
As promised, here to blog about e events that happened today.
Firstly, today was supposed to be 6 of us devils' outing but in e end, only got me, ky, yh and wz.
DENYSE! Get well soon alright? Must get loads of rest!
Sx's unavailable as usual. Sigh.
I would be lying if i were to say that i ain't disappointed about her saying she can't make it again.
E 6 of us used to be tight.
But recently, i realised that we are not as close as we once thought before.
It all boils down to each of our own, individual effort and input.
Friendship is difficult to forge; maintaining a friendship is just as difficult.
I just hope that each and every one of us will be able to return to like it was during dance-close and tight.
Anyway, back to today.
I was e earliest to arrive today!
What a miracle.
But was actually going to meet xe early to pass her her disc but i was too late.
So end up being e first to arrive.
Ky was second to arrive.
But we are on time.
Yh was last. WAHAHAS.
We couldnt find her so we decided to meet at Dhoby instead.
We went to book tickets, laughed all e way, then me and yh watched ky eat her lunch at Pastamania.
Wz went M.I.A so we went to search for her..
Wz, CHEER UP!
We would always be there for you if you need it.
You need not keep your unhappiness to yourself alright?
We are just a phone call away.
Anyway, went The Cathay to watch New Moon.
I was explaining e plot to yh most of e time.
E movie is boring. Book is much nicer.
But i have to say that New Moon isn't interesting or nice to read anyway.
So its kind of difficult to gauge how good this movie is.
After movie we went to walk around Orchard.
For some reason, they keep want to go Robinson. -.-
I wasn't interested to so we didn't went in.
We went up to e rooftop at Central.
Wow. The view is awesome.
Too bad it wasn't at night though.
All else i would be star-gazing instead.
Nonetheless, i cloud-gazed instead.
I hoped i would be able to go up and star-gaze soon.
I really love stars.
It might be e way they shine, with little light to provide, yet, still able to mesmerise me.
I hope that one day, i would be someone else's star and guide them along their path.
We went to e new mall, 313 at Somerset.
Shopping there should be fun, though most of e stores are repeated again. Sigh.
There isn't much innovation from e stores though.
Hoping to see more new concept and more singapore shops opening in those malls.
Lastly, we walked to Far East but we decided to stop at Ion and just sit down at Starbucks instead.
Bought coffee and gossips and jokes were shared before we finally headed home.
Home Sweet Home.
Good news!
I finally got e job. YAY!
Admin stuff, near my house.
I am currently addicted to Gossip Girl series!
Plus DBSK stuff!
For those of you who don't know, DBSK is an extremely famous korean band that is super talented! [HEEHEES.]
Thats all for today i guess. =]
1st December 2009.
I woke up early to prepare for chalet.
Went to teng's house with xe evan and hui.
But i was late cause waiting for e cheesecake baked by my mum to be ready.
At teng's house, we did some stuff before we went off to the chalet at about 2 plus.
We made a detour to cp to fetch joe with her bottles of drinks.
A big shout out to teng's father for driving us there and to joe for bringing e drinks.
Thank you both!
We reached the chalet early, with no idea what to do except to wait for the arrival of Mr Tee.
That was when joe said that she brought along poker cards and we started playing e game Cheat.
It was hilarious in the middle of e game, especially when i got some of e cards and knew when people had cheated.
The biggest laughter coming out of us, i mean them was when i shouted out to whoever was cheating at that time 'you actually dared to cheat in front of me?!' in Chinese.
Everyone was stunned then all burst out laughing, including me, while e pathetic cheater who was exposed by yours truly meekly took e cards while she continued to laugh.
The sight of Mr Tee arriving interrupted e game as he passed the keys to us and asked us to walk there to open the door while he enjoyed the cool breeze from the air condition in his Subaru car in the hot humid weather.
He was so heartless. [HAHAS]
But i happy to say that we are almost on par with the speed of his car when we arrived at the door at almost e same time.
We booked the two best rooms for e girls and i hurried to ensure that everything in e list was there.
That's when i realised that i am hopeless in e kitchen.
i was utterly stumped and defeated with all e cutlery and utensils and stuff found in the kitchen.
Thank God when my called for help was answered though.
Xe and Karin were send to bring people in to the chalet while me teng and evan initially planned to look for a perfect spot on the beach for e games.
We gave up in the end and decided to play e games out at the driveway instead.
While teng and evan prepared e games, it was exercise for me as i stroll back and forth finding any lost souls who are unable to find their way to e chalet.
And i m happy to say that i found two - th and cy! [L0LS]
When everyone who are coming early had arrived, we started the games.
It was a bit upsetting when they refused to be punished or even to play the games properly.
It also kinda of upset teng so while the rest were bbq-ing,i pulled her out for a walk walk.
And heavy clouds were gathering too so i was quite worried that it would rain.
Thank heaven it was only a slight drizzle.
Well, e highlight of this chalet had to be that me and teng meet wh cy and th at e pool.
i laughed my head off initially and didn't manage to really stop feeling high all e way.
Their goofy ways and all somehow just lifted our mood.
But e craziness all started when teng asked if want to just jump into e pool.
i agreed and we jumped in - with our clothes on.
We even had a competition with th and cy and we WON! [HEEHEES]
Next, we went up and down e slide.
I thought i was going to laugh my head off when the three guys went down the slide together.
The jacuzzi was really heaven when we sink into the frothing, warm water after the chlorine-filled, cold water in e pool.
We talked a bit and stuff, splashed water about, send water up in e air and basically, had fun.
Xe evan yz gab came out to look for us and to rent majong table.
xe joined us in e jacuzzi and we all did a dare to go down e slide into e freezing water.
We did it!
More laughter and we went back when e person ic called us out as there was lightning alert.
Meet those who went to rent majong stuff and we all headed back.
The alluring aroma of bbq food greeted us as our stomachs started rambling.
The head chef, tee, was cooking at e bbq while his assistant, joseph was carrying an umbrella to prevent e slight drizzle from destroying e food.
A SUPER BIG Thank You to Ms Joseph for preparing e food for us and marinating them and Mr Tee for helping us booked e chalet and being such a great chef.
I can proudly say that e food was awesome! =DD
Guo lao shi popped by and even played majong with e girls.
At about 1plus, e food was finally cleared and some of us retreated into e room to do our stuff.
Xe evan me teng kar per joe started out playing cards and evan and joe was forced to do forfeit when they lost. [L0LS]
It was really fun and funny.
Then, we had a heart-to-heart talk with each other.
It was then that we really connected with each other and get to really know each other.
I know my secrets and stuff will not be leaked out of e room, just as you all trusted me to keep yours.
Thanks for all those memories with you all for e past 4 years in this school.
You all are what creates e memories in this school and made it special for me.
Thank you, each and every one of you who somehow stumbled along into my path or was stuck with me through it all.
The chalet ended with us in a half asleep mood the next morning while we dragged our weary self to home, where our cosy and warm bed are calling out to us.
This is it.
We are finally off to further discover ourselves, going our separate ways, heading towards different routes and fulfilling our own dreams along e way.
We might or might not meet again but somehow, we met each other at this crossroad-NCHS.
An unforgettable journey with each and every one of us that let me experienced all sorts of emotions-laughter, happiness, blissfulness, sadness, emoness, tears, anger and disappointment.
Yet, i don't regret walking down this route and meeting all of you all.
You all helped to create pictures and memories that would be dearly cherished, for me.
Without you all, i would just be an empty shell waiting to be filled.
I sincerely hope that each one of us will be able to pursue your own dreams and happiness.
All e best, everyone.
Reading Matt's blog really inspired me.
Somehow, he made me really want to make my dreams a reality.
I had the same goal as he has.
Yet, i m doubting myself and am still hesitating.
Though he might not even know my existence, he influenced me, one way or another.
Just wanna thank him.
Thank you, for inspiring me, Matt.
Though i might not have e courage to, you got me thinking about doing it.
A quote from his blog "Dreams are simply reality waiting to happen."
你说的话在我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心很疼
记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨
只怕再问对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉另外一个人
我等等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候比较真
太多疑问
知道答案
又如何原来容忍
不需要天份
只要爱错一个人
心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子
I have really given up.
It just seemed too impossible.
We would be going our different ways and hopefully, this secret of mine would remain as it is- a secret.
We might talk, we might not.
But i wish you all e best for your future.
Yesterday night left me quite pissed and disappointed.
But i woke up to a day, devoid of all emotions.
I had thought it out already.
I m glad if everyone could turn up.
But if they dont, its alright.
We shall have fun with those who did.
I dont know how it turned out to be like this.
But i m seriously glad that i wouldnt be seeing some people again.
Those who are my true friends are people who would bother to keep in touch with me.
Those that didnt bother or i didnt bother to means nothing to me then.
They are just a phrase that i m going through with.
It would pass.
Just hoping it will be a success this coming tues..
Finally blogging again after months of non-blogging.
Okayy ppl, you all are only gonna hear this from me once.
I miss studying. =X
What a surprise right?
But seriously, now that i no longer have to mug for 'o's, i miss it.
The contantancy, the knowing of what to do for that day.
Now that all has ended, i am feeling lost in this world.
Who am i, what is my purpose here, what am i going to do next.
It's all starting to feel surreal for me.
Where do i belong?
Red Camp 6
It is the best camp that i have attend.
The atmosphere and environment was great.
Warm and friendly SLs that make this camp special for us.
Amazing MCs ( especially matthew's voice. =DD )
Good food, a mass dance that manage to bond us all as one.
We even broke two singapore records!
How awesome is that?
Cheers that make us go wild, unite us as one, regardless of tribes.
What Camp? Red Camp 6!
VIKINGS OYE, VIKINGS! Horny horny. =]
It was really a unforgettable experience for me, one that would forever be with me even as this camp end.
Who knows, maybe i would go to NP next year and be one of e SL next year..
PROM NIGHT
Well, i have to say that i feel kind of bored there.
Not much events and programmes, food that was nearly gone by e time i manage to reach it.
Actually, i was throughly bored there. =X
People thought that i was emo but actually, just bored. =]
Behind e camera most of e time, helping ppl to capture memories of this night for them.
I quite regret attending as i miss a job opportunity when i went to shop for a dress instead of accepting e offer.
Oh well, its my choice afterall.
Sorry if this offend anyone but seriously, i think its kind of fake when ppl go around pretending to be good friends with each other like forever when they took pictures with ppl they are not familiar with.
Its just so not me.
So, that day ended early for me..
Well, 'o's finally is over.
I m not sure how i felt about it.
Kind of glad that its over, at the same time missing school.
Read a inspirational blog today that got me thinking about my goal in life again.
I always wanted to go into Business to help my family someday.
But recently, been thinking about going into mass comm journalism.
I aint sure if i could write beautifully, inspire ppl with words that i wrote.
Yet, writing never fails to give me a sense of satisfication.
I doubt myself over and over again, especially when even my family think that i wouldnt be suitable for this job.
They think that in this line, a lot of it has to do with connections and having a extendable networking connection that is broad.
I have to agree with them to a large extend.
i just m not that type.
But all i could say is, i want to write, to inspire others, to let others read my work.
It been a long time since i pen down my thoughts and feelings.
Or in this case, mose or key it down. L0ls.
Been having tests after tests for e past few wks.
And failing them.
Super demoralise.
Cannt wait for o levels to be over.
Going back dance tomorrow.
Gonna find back my confidence and do something that i love.
Been feeling lost for e past few days.
No idea what i wanna do, where i wanna go.
Dance studio, is my haven.
Dancing, is my passion.
Without these and e devils, it would have been hard to survive.
Going back to dance to experience all this juzt for one more day.
E laughter we share, e dances we learn, e fun that we have.
after that, gonna strive hard to attain my goals.
And just for that, i will work super hard.
Cause after o, i will be dancing again. =]
Hmm. i m thinking of deleting this blogg. i will soon. =]
平常心
街道静的刺耳
夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前
先上车 不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得 不想再拉扯
我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐 只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可
GOSSIPS.