If you have a wish, what will you wish for?

2010-11-20T01:12:00.004+08:00

Somehow, feeling quite down these days.
Don't really know e exact reason why though.
Ain't I weird?
Out of e blue, I start to question myself again.
My capabilities, abilities and so on and so forth.
People have pushed me on to greater height, saying that it's all for my own good.
And I've been climbing and climbing up to the peak, without any rest or time to reflect.
Time and time again, I am thrown into a situation where I have to lead, without any knowledge of how to.
Like the blind leading the blind.
I ask myself over and over again; what make others think that I can do it well enough?
And I've no answer for myself.
Are leaders born or made?
With no sense of direction, I continued to climb to the top, only to reach the peak.
And it all goes downhill from there.

Secondary 4; one of the most difficult and tiring period of my life.
SYF Chinese Dance.
'O' Levels.
Chairperson for 4E.
The most testing period for me.
I really wanted to do a good job for everything that was thrown to me.
Really.
But I didn't.
And to this day, I still blamed myself for not doing a better job at all of these during that one year.
For not being able to get a gold, to not doing as well as I thought I would, to not being able to unite the class.
It break my heart.
And the scar will remain and haunt me even after the memories have faded.
The year that I regretted the most, the 12 months of tears and sweat, I wished to turn back time to start all over again and to tell myself never to repeat the mistakes that I made that year, hoping that things would be better.
But I can't.
And till this day, when someone puts me in a position to lead others, I asked myself: What rights do you have? What makes you think that you can do it?
Yes, its my low self-esteem acting up again.
And I would not dare to lead anymore.

Silence is golden.

2010-10-31T21:59:00.002+08:00

It's Chinese 'A' Levels tomorrow.
And I'm still here, staring at my computer screen.
Surfing on Facebook, Kpoping and even writing here on my blog.
Somehow, at this moment, I miss NCHS a lot, a lot.
I'm not even studying one-fifth as hard as I did when I was in NCHS going to take 'O' Levels Chinese.
And I wonder if by some miracle, I will be able to score an A for my Chinese 'A'.
I hope I did.
Cause if I didn't, I'm going to retake till the A is mine.
It's my perfectionist personality that's rearing in again.

I passed, survived JC1 and gonna be a JC2 next year.
I really don't know if I should be happy or sad.
On one hand, being a perfectionist, if I happen to fail to get promoted, I would probably be super super upset though I wouldn't show it.
Bad results puts me in a super bad mood.
But on the other hand, it means I have to survive another year of struggles and torture with my academics subjects.
And I wouldn't be free till after 'A' Levels next year.
I can't go to Poly and pursue my dreams too.
And I would have to live through the anxiety of not knowing whether I would swim or sink for the whole year next year.
I came to realise abit too late that I was never cut out to be a mugger.
I take things one step at a time, as it is.
I cannot sit down and actually study for hours.
And I still didn't learnt my lessons during the 'O' Levels period.
The darkest period of time in my sixteen years of life.
Sometimes, I really wonder to myself, what am I doing here.
This isn't e place for me to be.
But as I reflect on how well life has treated me, I realised that everything happens for a reason.
I realised how lucky I am.
And I realised that I should be thankful.
Yes, there are many regrets in my life.
But all are beautiful mistakes that led me to be a wiser person.
So from now on, I shouldn't be having anymore regrets.
It's time for me to realise how grateful I should be and how guilty I am towards my studies.
Passing JC1 promo is by luck; I admit that I did not quite study for it.
Firstly, because I was really really sick.
Secondly, I wasn't in the mood again. =X
It's time for me to get rid of this attitude.
It's time for me to get serious.
It's time for me to start studying hard again.

2010-10-10T22:59:00.002+08:00

10/10/10
A day that only happen once in a lifetime.
And come to think of it, I lived through 01/01/01, 02/02/02, 03/03/03, 04/04/04, 05/05/05, 06/06/06, 07/07/07, 08/08/08, 09/09/09 and now... 10/10/10.
It is kind of amazing if you think about it.
Cause we're gonna live through 11/11/11 and 12/12/12.
This day, I want to give a special shout out to all my family and friends and every one who happened to cross path with me in my life.
Thank you for being there for me and appearing in my life.
Thank you for tolerating me, my nonsense, and my crap.
Thank you for standing by me through thick and thin, for believing in me and for encouraging me when I was down.
Thank you.
Because of you all, I am who I am today.
And will be who I am tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.
I have never once been able to confess in person how much I appreciated any of you all for standing by me in one way or another.
But trust me; each and every one of you is being truly appreciated by me.
I have never been good at expressing myself, often choosing to thank someone only in my heart or to pen down my feelings in this blog which no one will read.
But that's just the way that I am.

A confession to make:
My initial dream was to be a dancer.
It's a weird dream of mine as few would dare to dream about being one.
And one which I too, eventually gave up.
Being a dancer seemed attractive to me because of the feeling you get when you're dancing.
It's like being in another world; a world that only you and the music exist in.
Dancing gave me the freedom that I never really had.
And it empowers me.
I've always love to perform on stage as you know that your hard work paid off when you hear the applause.
The applause is the greatest gift that a dancer could receive; it is when you know that you're being appreciated.
The excitement that one felt before you step on stage also gave me a sort of adrenaline rush that you cannot feel normally.
That's why dance has always been my love and my passion.

And as I struggle with my studies, struggle to keep myself interested and awake to study academical subjects, I often wonder if one day, I will be able to break free and run far away, to somewhere where no one know who I am and just fulfil whatever dreams that I have.
Maybe someday, I will have to the courage to do so.
But till then, I am stuck with my books.

2010-10-05T20:40:00.004+08:00

Promotional exams just started.
And I need to pass badly.
Cause I have finally decided to stay on in JC and work hard for another one year.
Work hard first, play even harder after A levels.
I wanna try travelling for a month after A levels. Alone.
Wonder if I am able to persuade my parents to let me to do so. Ohh well.
But I just wanna get away from Singapore and try some fun and exciting stuff by myself.
Like bungee jumping. =D
Really wanna have a taste of freedom too, with no one to care about me, no one who knows me.
Who knows, I might just suddenly pack up and leave Singapore for a month without anyone, except my family, knowing to go backpacking in Europe.
A girl can dream right? Heehees. =)

Two nice quotes to share today:

"All you need is already within you, only you must approach your self with reverence and love. Self-condemnation and self-distrust are grievous errors. Your constant flight from pain and search for pleasure is a sign of love you bear for your self, all I plead with you is this: make love of your self perfect. Deny yourself nothing -- glue your self infinity and eternity and discover that you do not need them; you are beyond".
---Nisargadatta Maharaj

"Opportunity: A favorable occasion for grasping a disappointment."
---Ambrose Bierce

A Night to Remember

2010-09-14T22:00:00.004+08:00

Dear Devils,
Thank You for all the wonderful memories.
9 September 2010 was a night that made me reminisce the past.
Yet, I went back with fresh and new memories and I believe that more will come along the way as we dance our way through life.
Honestly, I miss you all like crazy. (Not only just the four of us but also yh and sx.)
I miss dancing with you all, talking with you all and the thing I miss the most would be the laughter that we share.
Only with you all am I able to be at ease to be completely 100% me.
Without the encouragement and support that you guys have given me, I would not have come so far.
JC life might be difficult and arduous but let's all try our best and don't give up.
Someday, we would have the chance to dance together again.
Someday, ALL of us would be able to meet up and catch up and dance together as one again.

I love my devils.

9 September 2010.
Though this date might seem insignificant to others, this day, in year 2010, it was filled with memories.
Though we might not be able to dance together, being able to watch Step Up 3 3D was equally satisfying even though it might not be the same.
As usual, I was late in meeting you all. (Keekees. Pigs will fly when I am early right?)
Went to shop for an early present.
After that, we catched the movie and bought food that can be takeaway easily and train down to
Marina Bay because ky wants to see the night scene there.
Upon reaching there, we sat at the steps at the Singapore River and the breath-taking night scene rendered me speechless.
The lights from the buildings in the city area lit up across the bay was like the twinkling night stars that always seem to be so far away.
The lights added colours to the pitch black surroundings around it and doused the calm waters with an array of colours.
It is a night spot for couples and somehow, with our loud voices, I think we scared off a couple or two. (I am so sorry! Heehees.)
We sat there talking about our life and stuff as we enjoyed our food while basking in the beauty of the scenery whereby thereafter, we took some photos.
And as we walked back to the MRT, we walked the DNA Bridge and took more photos, while laughing hard when ky's camera kept taking blurry photos of us before we decide to take with wz's phone instead. (Oh ya, insert the jokes here. =D)
The long journey back home was make shorten as we chat before we finally parted ways at Serangoon MRT. (Yea, remember the jokes? My house. -.-)
But yupp, definitely, it was a night to remember indeed.

<3<3 DEVILRINAS 09092010

2010-09-13T21:56:00.004+08:00

YAY!!
Received an email that made my day today!
It has also become a source of motivation to make me study even harder as of today!
I got into the EU Trip!
Heehees. Get to go Europe, mainly Brussels I think.
Ehmagod, still can't believe that I managed to get in. =DD
This trip is quite exclusive so I am like super happy. =DD
YAY!
Of course, hard work comes next.
Beside studying hard to ensure that wouldn't get retained, I need to make sure that I am not late for school as I cannot get suspended.
And I need to start doing research for this trip. =)
Off to study now.
Study hard, everyone. =)

2010-09-12T19:28:00.002+08:00

Oh my, time does indeed fly.
Today is the last day of my one week holiday.
And I regretted not studying at all this holiday. (Don't we all?)
Been kpoping this whole one week and I guess I have to stop.
Time to start some serious studying right?
Sigh. But I think I am hooked on kpop.
Been watching those reality shows and stuffs non-stop this whole week.
I've also been wishing hard about being able to speak Korean. (Do I sound crazy of what?)
It's my dream to visit Korea and maybe someday, join the media industry there..

My CA2 results were surprisingly alright.
Surprisingly as I have not been studying at all and this had caused waves of guilt and remorse to flush over me.
Surprisingly as during the period of my CA2, I wasn't in the mood to study at all due to various reasons.
I don't really deserve this result.
Though it's not exactly awesome, I should have been failing most of my exams but I managed to improve from mid years.
I was quite shocked and this made me felt determined to study hard for this promos and see how things turn out.
Yea, I should probably start studying now and hope for the best right? =D

2010-09-04T22:58:00.002+08:00

Too tired to post.
Gonna repost up this song cause I really love e lyrics and e dance.
Hmm. Maybe I should start to learn how to dance this dance. =)

Time To Love - Tara and Supernova. =D

2010-08-25T23:13:00.002+08:00

Just heard from Sum today how our performance for JC2 sucks so badly till there was criticism flying around.
I was deeply hurt.
This is the first time since I started dancing in Primary school that I heard such negative comments from others about how our performance sucks.
I wanted to die and just go and hide in a corner and cried.
But I didn' t and I won't.
Firstly, it's not worth it.
Secondly, no use crying over spilled milk. It's time to move on and hopefully do well tomorrow.
The amount of time and effort we spent just do come up with this choreo was terrible.
Go home late, physically and mentally tired.
And to hear such negative comments, it's like all our hard work had gone down the drain.
From the start, I didn't want to perform because I was afraid that this would happen.
And it really did.
Let's just hope that tomorrow would be a success.
Goo nights sweet dreams.

2010-08-25T00:09:00.002+08:00

Shall update more on Thursday.
But for now, enjoy this awesome MV first.
Even though it's by Taeyang, a korean singer, its in English!
So for people like teng who is anti-kpop, don't worry!
Super duper awesome dancing (popping mostly) and meaningful lyrics and of course, the beautiful vocals and the guy himself. =)
Just gonna love him. Heehees. =)

ENJOY! =D

2010-08-22T13:20:00.002+08:00

By Wonder Girls, Yenny (Korean)

By original singer Liang Jing Ru.

I think this song is like super meaningful and sad.
But I still like it. HAHAS.
Suits what I am thinking now.
Sometimes, it's just up to fate to decide.

2010-08-19T23:00:00.002+08:00

It has been a really tough week.
Cried for like a consecutive of four to five nights.
Went through each day in school like a zombie, not really caring much nor talking much.
But its alright, I'm getting stronger.
Today can be considered quite a good day as I am finally on the track to cheering up.
Beginning to feel more normal and numb to life in school and the burdens that come comes along with it.
Yes, it's really stressful but I am not going to waste this year away.
I shall try my best and if I fail, it just goes to prove that I am not suitable for JC.
And I shall be bouncing happily out, on my way to NP to pursue my dreams.
Or I might just be able to continue to stay in JC. Who knows?
But before that even happen, I need to work hard for my Promos.
Work hard study hard, decide later.

Sometimes, I really do hate the way human treats other human beings.
As the world evolves to embrace diversity and changes, while at the same time talking about human rights and freedom for themselves, have they really reach the point whereby they learn to treat every single living thing with it's due respect?
Yes, we might dislike others.
Yes, it's impossible for everyone to like everyone.
But you know what?
We should just stop acting like spoilt brats who cant stand this or that.
Just respect the person for who he/she is and if you can't click, so be it eh.
Don't turn everyone against those who are different.
They're humans too; they can hurt.

2010-08-15T16:30:00.003+08:00

I seriously have enough with PW.
I wish that I can just throw this subject away and be done with everything.
Just looking at the amount of work I have to do for my PW is terrifing and scaring the shit out of me.
So much work, so little time.
And to top it off, my members ain't cooperating much with me.
I already have so much on my hands; yet, they refused to share e load and thus, I was forced to take more than I could bite.
Just looking at it is causing panic to rise inside of me and I am really dreading to go school.

To make things worse, I am still waiting for another member to send me his stuff for my history project.
I have waited e whole night yesterday and I was kind enough to message him today morning to remind him, whereby he promised I would have it by 3pm.
You know what? Its already 4.30pm and I still see no sight of it.
Damn it.

I need a little faith, a little hope, that I would be able to survive this year and the next.
I need to believe that I can do it and I will make it.
I need to trust again.

2010-08-14T17:11:00.005+08:00

Just this week, I witness another of my classmates leaving JC for poly.
She's e second one in my class.
And seriously, I envy her for being brave enough to leave at this time of the year.
I know that if I am to leave now, I would be able to breathe again, to feel alive again.
I would no longer feel as suffocated, no longer feel that tied down and bounded by something.
Yet, I can't really bear to leave, for several reasons.
First, it would greatly disappoint my parents and relatives.
And part of the reason why I am in a JC is also cause of them.
Second, the old and new friends that I have make in JC.
They're the people who's drving me insane but at the same time keeping me sane in JC.
Third, I am not prepared to embrace the uncertainity of the future if I am to drop out now and head to poly.
I have no idea if I am gonna be suited for the course, have no idea if I would really suit the poly lifestyle too.
Though I much much prefer poly life as it is much more free.
Do I follow my dreams or stay?

Dear mummy, I am sorry for scaring out the hell of you yesterday night.
I know it makes your heart break to see me like that for the 3rd or 4th time this year but I just cant help it.
I need to get it all out, or it would have drove me mad.
The tears that wouldn't stop ever since I reached home yesterday, the hiding in my room and all that stuff had make you thought that I was going crazy.
I am sorry.

I dreaded going to school, going to classes.
Going to classes and sitting through lessons after lessons scared the hell out of me.
Just the thought of it is making my tears flow again. Ohh man.
The endless tests, homework, project work, presentations...
When will this personal hell of mine end and when will I be able to get away from it?
Please, just let me end this once and for all.
I have enough.

But it looks like I will still have at least 1 more year of hell to go through before it ends.

2010-08-10T00:31:00.002+08:00

Hmm. Last Friday had to be one of the best day in my life.
I met up with 3 of my devils.
It's a miracle that we all survived and didn't choke on our food that day from laughing so hard.
Anyway, I rushed down to meet them- wz, ky, nyse -at IKEA.
I was late cause dance ended late and though I tried to rush down, I ended up being even later.
The reasons: I was talking to teng on the phone and ended up alighting one stop earlier, having which I have to walked one bus stop down instead.
And when I finally reached, I lost my way.
I walked one whole round to find the cafe and couldnt find them though they were seated up high, till they started waving like crazy at me.
Devils, next time seat at a place which is my eye level okay? L0LS. =D
Talk, laugh, gossip, and more laughter.
Plus a bit of camera-whoring.
And a teeny tiny bit of dancing and singing when we were on our way back and walking around IKEA.
Oh my, how I miss you guys.
It has been so long since I acted this crazily and laugh that much.
I miss you all!
Devils FTW. <3<3

Sunday was a day spent at Changi Airport to do PW.
Two PW groups came togther to do their own project. L0LS!
But anyway, met up with teng and cx to study at Starbucks early in the morning.
Guess what?
Two miracles happened.
First, I was the earliest to reach. Heehees.
So proud of myself. (But of course, there's a long story behind how come I was the earliest.)
Second, we met Jaslyn at the airport with her PW group.
Guess the airport is the new it place to do PW eh.
How awesome is that? =D
We all crapped and took some photos after PW and 'studying'.
But the real fun came when me and teng went home together.
We started to camera-whore on the long journey home cause we were bored.
And we started posing funny poses in front of her iMac.
Though teng claimed that it was all my fault, I knew she was having fun.
Heehees. That's what happen when I get bored.
I do stupid stuff.
And drag innocent people around me along with it.

I hoped this holiday last longer.
My CA is coming and I am completely dreading it.
I am not one who can really sit down and mug hard.
I hate academics stuff.
But you know what?
Since I have already choosen this path and it's too late to back out now, I am just gonna go ahead and do my best!
Jiayouus, everyone! =)

2010-07-29T23:14:00.003+08:00

Just a quick update as I am waiting to scan finish my PW stuff to send to my group members.
Sigh. PW do suck.
JC life is starting to brighten up for me; the only thing I hate about it now would have to be PW, which is seriously making me puke blood and the cause of my hair turning grey.
In a way, I still miss my secondary school life, though not as much as before.
It might be due to the awesome friends that I have made there and the fact that I realised that my CG is acutally quite amazing.
After all these months together, I realise how special my class is as compared to the others.
The dynamics of the class is quite good and we are all able to work well together.
Thanks to all of them, su, teng, cx being e most important people, I have really come to appreciate and enjoy my JC life.
Things are also starting to look up in dance too.
It's fun to dance kpop.
But I still miss nchs CD more and more everyday.
My devils are still the most awesome people and I miss them so much.

Realising that I have start to drift away from my secondary school friends leave me to ponder as to whether this is inevitable.
Time flies and I do admit that I don't have as much time for them as before.
And for that, I do feel extremely guilty towards them.
Which leaves one question in my head - Does the term 'forever friends' exist?
A relationship, as time passes by, will not be able to be maintain without continuous and constant time and effort put in.
But no matter what, these people will still remain dear and close to my heart in someway or another.
I miss all of you!

My SA results suck.
I need to work even harder now.
It's time to take my work seriously starting from today.
Go, Regina! =D

REFLECTION

2010-07-07T23:58:00.004+08:00

It has been around three months since I last blog.
I think I am gonna go back to blogging at least once a week regardless of whether anyone would even bother to read this old stupid blog of mine.
Cause at least its a place where i can vent out all those frustrated feelings cooped inside of me out.

Just had my Chinese oral today and I think I am gonna fail it.
Really miss e Chinese lessons in NCHS.
It was so much better there.
At least I could safely say that I wouldn't do badly for my Chinese 'O' then.
But here, there isn't any safety net casted out for us.
No one to rely on, no preparation done, no intensive practise.
I had nothing, nothing except myself to depend on for this oral exam.
And I left the examination hall feeling nothing but dejected and disappointed.
I was on the verge of crying but I controlled it.
And these past few months have toughen me up and left me with no more emotions.
How I wish that I can at least cry out loud and feel much better after it.

As I study Amy's View, one character stood out especially for me.
Esme, a woman who still live in the past and refuse to accept change.
Many a times, I wondered if I am like her.
The refusal to move on.
Yet, as realisation dawn on me, I realised that I don't live in the past.
In fact, I love change.
But, the past comes back and haunt me every other day.
Dance, the love of my life.
Yet, I only completely love dance when I am dancing with my beloved devilrinas.
Without them, the dance studio held no warmth.
Without them, dance isn't as fun.
Without them, I don't belong.
It wasn't just that I miss my dancers.
It's also cause I still can't find my bearing in dance.
Ever felt left out and alone though your surrounded by a lot of people?
Yea, that's how I felt there now.
I love dance till e extent that I miss dance if I don't dance for one day.
But, the joy when I finally get to dance faded, to be replace by emo-ness and sadness every time I step out of the dance studio at the end of the day.
And it isn't because I miss dance.
The reason that I am still staying is because I love dance too much to give up on it.
The thought of leaving crossed my mind repeatedly, over and over again.
And I wonder if anyone will even realise when I am no longer there.
I doubt so.
That's how insignificant I am in this world.

After so many months, I finally gathered all my courage up to talk to you again.
Yet, silence greeted me at the other end, leaving me to ponder whether once something is lost, it can never come back again.
Friendship; something which drew me in but always leaving me hurt and lost.
Time and time again, I suffered under the hands of it.
It often make me wonder if all that effort and time I put in is worth it.
I still believe that it is.
Every friendship is valuable to me, even if you might not think so.
I ain't good at expressing my emotions and stuff but yea, friendship is something that I still seek and treasure every single day.
And I will wait till e day you decide to forgive me.

Till I can leave all of these behind, I am gonna hate and wouldn't be able to forgive myself.

2010-04-19T23:06:00.003+08:00

I came to realise in these past few weeks that the remedy to emo-ness are smiles, hugs and friends.
As the days turn to weeks and turn to months, I found my place in the school, finally getting used to it.
And I thank God and whoever who have helped me through this difficult period of time and tolerating my nonsensical nonsense.
Especially my family and close friends. (You know who you are. =D)

METATHESIOPHOBIA

2010-04-12T23:54:00.002+08:00

Hmm. My blog is kind of full of negative thoughts.
But that's just cause it is my rubbish dump for my crapps.
JC life hasn't exactly been a bed of roses for me.
Been letting my emotions run wild and stuff like that.
But it had been a hard few months for me.
I was really unable to adjust; e culture and everything was very different from what I was used to.
Many a times, I really wanted to be like Doreamon or at least have him as my pet just so that I could borrow his time machine as and when I like to visit those beautiful memories of e past again.
But, I couldn't.
It is just but a fiction.

I am gonna try to smile through everyday even though I couldn't bring myself to smile anymore.
I really miss life in e past.

2010-04-03T19:29:00.002+08:00

How long has it been since I last update this blog?
Hmm.. Anyway, life in jc consist only of dance, play, study and sleep.
Sleep is not compulsory anymore though.
Its like, sleep if you can.
In my life, I don't often make wise decisions.
Made many that i came to regret as time passed.
Yet, I am no Doreamon.
I can't turn back the clock.
As time starts to tick away, every second, every minute, sometimes I wonder where I am and why I am here.
It might be because of an unwise decision that i made; it might be because I chose to be here.
I hope that every single thing I ask myself that question, e answer will be e latter.

Sometimes, I wish time will just stop.
Stop, at the time where each and every smile is captured and trapped in that frame.
Toki wo tomete.
How i wish that is true..

2010-02-28T16:39:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time since I last blog.
And JC life is dragging me down and making me insane.
I really really feel so homesick for familiar faces at NCHS.
CNY had come and go.
Now its time for me to just get use to my life and continue walking down e route I had choosen, whether I like it or not.
Life's full of regrets; I am, myself, an exemplary example.
Yet, I just have to deal with it and stop making a bloody fuss.
Go, regina. =D

BBQ at yz hse was fun.
Danced in public, eat and most impt of all, bonded and catch up with my friends.
I miss all of you! =]
Though going back to school on CNY celebration day was a disappointment cause can't find e teachers, it was heartwarming to see everyone at NCHS again, this time wearing their JC's uniform proudly or in home clothes. =D
Though the cheers in the canteen was a little bit too much. -.-

Being late for assembly though I woke up at 5.30am every morning just to be on time sucks.
It sucks even more when I am being marked late for school just cause of that.
Tears I had been holding back rushed out that day when I talked to my parents.
On some days, I just wondered if I have made e right decision afterall.
What would my life be like if I m in poly right now?

Roadrun on wed was a killer.
I was 138th.
Out of an estimation of 400 ppl.
YAY. Congrats to me right?
But its all thanks to teng who keep making me run. Ohh well.

Dance really rocks my life.
Absolutely love going to dance and look forward to dance every wed and fri.
Hoping for more dances to learn thou. =D

DBSK got new album in Japan.
Plus new songs that r absolutely fanastic.
Too bad I coulnd get my hands on one. =(

Something that I just realised.
Regrets are a norm in life; its just how you turn those regrets to dreams of your own. =]

2010-02-04T23:00:00.003+08:00

Wow. My first 100th post today.
Hmm. JC life again.
Here's a quick update of last week to today.

Fake lectures and bonding session with OGMs from OG24!
Isnt it funny that that I am from OG20 but went to join OG24 instead? L0LS.
Luckily though they are super friendly ppl who don't mind me joining them!
First week of fake lectures and I have got homework. -.-
I finished all though. YAY.
One thing i dont like about e school, beside e distance, will be that mugging is not "cool". -.-
Thats what i learned about my cg ppl when lectures started for real.
My CG ppl r alright but not really close with them.
Cause every moment, every min of free time i have is spent in e cafe for bonding session with OG24! =D

So last fri, 5feb2010, went out to have dinner with OGM24 ppl at Swensons.
17 of us in total.
Talk, crap, eat, take photos.
Nu nu, jon and jia really made me laugh like shite with their lover and mistress thing.
Worse thing was that they were sitting right in front of me.
Which really made it difficult for me to eat. -.-

Mon, 8feb2010.
Officially started lessons and stuff.
Continue to meet OGMs24 whenever I am free.
They really are the ones who made me enjoy coming to school everyday.
E awesome ppl are: Teng! Gwendy, Isabel, Sangeetha, Jonathan, Viyshnu, Jia Yi, Bryan, Lloyd, Aaron, Cheryl, Javier and so on..!
Awesome ppl who brighten up my day at TPJC. =D

2010-02-03T21:14:00.002+08:00

Hmm. It's a bit difficult to adapt to JC life.
The rhythm, the pace, it just doesn't seem right.
But I will, I shall get use to it soon.
Even if I can't.

Here's some quotes to share:
(My fav one,)
“You can never tell what people are thinking and feeling unless they tell you, and usually they lie. You ask them, ‘Whats wrong?’ and they say ‘Nothing’. You accept this because it’s easier than digging for the truth. People smile when they want to cry, they laugh when they want to scream and shout. They pretend like nothing is wrong because they don’t want to face the truth. Things aren’t always rainbows and butterflies, sometimes you gotta scream and cry your anger and sadness to the world, because you can only hold it in for so long before something in you snaps. so when you want to cry, cry. When you want to scream, scream. Don’t hide behind fake smiles, it’s ok to not be alright.”
— Unknown

Existence precedes Essense
-Jean-Paul Satre

"Existence really is an imperfect tense that never becomes a present."
-Friedrich Nietzsche

Last but not least, let me end with this cute quote for today.
"Swimming is not a sport. Swimming is a way to keep from drowning. That’s just common sense!" - George Carlin

Sleeping now.
Niites sweet dreams to all. =D

2010-02-01T18:04:00.005+08:00

I know that I had been MIA from blogging for quite a few days.
Hmm. Too tired to blog.
I had to wake up at 5plus in e morning everyday.
That's e thing that i dislike most about TPJC - e distance.
The distance can kill you. And i do meant it literally.
Blurr as we are, me and teng took e long route to school for e past two days, taking more than 1 hr.
Guessed what? By following our seniors to school today, we only take about 45mins or less.
And its guaranteed that we wouldn't be late.
Oh man.
Oh ya, forget to add that being late for three times in this school would result in a one day suspension.
Nope, not a warning or demerit nor a detention but freaking SUSPENSION!!
HAHAS. I am super scared of arriving late to school now! =X

TPJC doesn't have any orientation till e orientation camp in march.
Is that a good or a bad thing? Cause I really can't decide.
So, in a way, my school isn't as high as e rest of e other jcs.
Two days of so called orientation landed me in my OG20!
People I get to know from that grp through e ice-breaking games and stuff are quite awesome, though our grp not really as united without our OGLs.
Learned e mass dance, which i super like cause its super easy to learn, which is basically e whole point of a mass dance.
Also learned school cheer, school song and the shortcuts and all around e school.
I also learned to seriously appreciate NC food.
TPJ food isnt exactly as nice...(You got my drift, don't you?)
Oh well, super miss NCHS!
E teachers, e principals, e food, e awesome and amazing ppl there and even e fishes in e koi pond. L0LS.
But seriously, stepping into a JC in NC uniform just doesn't seem right to me, like I don't really belong there.
I am slowly getting used to it though. =]
One thing I really wanna change about TPJ, it would have to be install more air-cons.
That school is like a rice cooker!
I am about to be cooked. Oh man.
But as I said earlier, am slowly starting to adapt and liking it there. =D
Cause its actually quite an awesome place, where I get to mix and know people from diff races, religions and backgrounds.
And it's quite like NCHS, mixing work and play together!
Looking forward to studying here, since my school has already started fake lectures and all to prepare and ease us into e JC curriculum.
And of course, no more procastination for me.
It will only be working hard towards my degree from now on. =]

I really wish that you would just give up.
The future would be brighter if you just look ahead at what life has to offer you, which is better than living in e past.

2010-01-27T07:24:00.002+08:00

Woke up at the crack of dawn to the sound of a my phone ringing, followed by the sound of my mum's voice telling me where I am posted to.
Somehow, I already knew deep down where I would be posted to; that explained why I asked teachers to help me write my appeal letter.
Yet, I still haboured hope that I might be able to get in cjc afterall.
Instead, tpjc would be where I would be heading to.
And thats where I would be starting a new chapter of my life.

2010-01-26T21:14:00.007+08:00

Hmm. Days seem to fly these days.
Reminiscing e past few years brought back many memories.
But in a flash, everyone would be parting ways soon.
A brand new start and beginning for me.
The start of a long long journey for me.
With the unavoidable loneliness accompanying me if i manage to get into cjc.

Sometimes, in a fit of anger, I said stuffs that I don't mean to and that are hurting.
I seriously don't mean it and regretted it but somehow, knew things will never be e same again.

Went to eat local noodles stuff last fri, 22jan2010.
People present were me evan teng rin xe perly yz th wh jereld.
We invited joseph and tee to eat with us too.
And many other teachers.
Took alot of photos and eat alot that day.
Went back up to dance studio to check out how cd is doing.
Quite disappointed. Sigh.
Went to play pool after that.
Oh man, I suck at pool now. L0LS.

23jan2010, saturday.
Went play pool and bball for e whole day.
People present were me rin joe perly yz th wh.
And i m hooked on e parapara and ddr machines in arcade. =X

Miss e devils outing on mon, 25jan2010, cause parents are grounding me.
Super sad about it. =(
But glad that they had lots of fun there! =D
Went out with my mummy instead.
Bought my bag and other stuff.

Went back to school today to take my testimonial.
Holding the envelope in my hand, reality sunk in.
I might not be able to get in my ideal school.
And the piece of flimsy, clean envelope might determine my future.
This, scared the shite out of me.
Waited with rin for yz for lunch.
Went his house after that to play with Twinkle.
I am so aducting that dog! HAHAS!
Super cute when I played tug-of-war with him and make him do tricks.
Jiu still say i torture his dog. -.-
Super love that dog.
Th yz and rin went to play bball, with e rest joining them in e late evening after work while i headed home.

I am so gonna miss them when i embark on e new journey.
The friends that who had been with me through the ups and downs in my life.
Friends who i had recently grow closer too, friends who had drifted but are drifting back again to where we were before.
I am super scared, super nervous but at e same time anticipating e release of e posting results tomorrow at 8am.
I realised that NCHS had grown onto me without me realising it; every step back into e school brought back fresh memories, as though it had just happen.
Every corridor, pathway, classroom and every corner, I saw myself, a shadow of myself there.
I ain't ready to say goodbye completely yet.
But I will learn to let go step by step.
And one day, I will finally have the courage to bid my school farewell.

Had been quite low these days.
Partly was quite affected by that conversation.
Had really wanted to make amendments but not really sure where to start.
I hate the feeling of disliking someone.
Anyway, also cause of the posting results.
Don't think I will be able to go to e school that I wanted so badly.
Cause life is unfair. HAHAS.
And I am super scared about breaking into cliques there and making new friends.
Trying to be positive by praying that me and teng can get in to that sch together!
Other stuff had been bothering me too but I am trying to not think about it. =DD

Been trying to stay high and smiley these days.
For everyone's sake.
No one likes their friend to be all moody when going out right?
And maybe, my craziness and highness will wipe away the tears falling inside.
Just like how smiling will give others a pretence of happiness when e person is actually feeling emotional deep down.
I am just feeling emotionally and mentally tired.
Sorry, think i quite crappy. HAHAS. =DD

2010-01-21T22:31:00.002+08:00

A super nice song.By Taeyang from Big Bang. =DD
Hmm. Had a clique outing today!
Me, teng, gin, ven!
Went to K and sang our hearts out.
More details when gin upload e pics up on fb.
Looking forward to tomorrow too. =]

2010-01-19T18:04:00.002+08:00

Tears kept rolling down, e conversation that we had kept replaying in my mind.
I was awake half of e whole night, thinking where I had gone wrong again.
And if I warned you to stay off my blog, please respect me and just leave now.
I do not wish to have another conversation with you again.

I just wanted to have a class gathering, a chance for all to bond and have fun again.
Yet, my intention were misunderstood and words that I wrote were manipulated into something else that isn't.
If till now, you all still don't understand what kind of a person I am, I am sorry to say that we have all been friends for these past few years for nothing.
It hurts, seriously hurt, to be misunderstood by ppl who you thought know you well.
But its alright; I have become inmume to it.

For those ppl who went on to read my blog when you r not suppose to, please just stop from now on.
I dont wish to be accuse of anything anymore.

NG YEETENG!
Another song for you. =DD

2010-01-19T00:48:00.002+08:00

Okayy.
Let me just make this crystal clear to everyone.
By e two groups, i meant those going to e outing on wed and those going on fri.
Period.
Please dont misunderstood again.
And I do deserve my freedom of speech.
And don't like what i write even though i NEVER criticise anyone, please just leave this blog.
This blog is for me to write my thoughts and feelings.
And i never did single out anyone to criticise.
Cause I know that no one is perfect.
Just like i ain't.
Sorry if you think that I am too emotional or whatsoever.
I am just writing it out.

2010-01-18T20:03:00.006+08:00

Crapp day today.
I mean seriously.
Beside e fact that I am having mood swing, stuffs are starting to piss me off.
Again.
Hmm. Let's see.
The first thing that pissed me off in the morning would have to be the class outings.
When would e class be united as one again instead of breaking up into two groups?
Seriously, I am tired of this.
I should just give up.
Afterall, I would be starting a new chapter in my life soon..
Second thing would be my parents.
But nvm.
I guessed its just my mood swing.

I m super confused now.
Please forgive me.

NG YEE TENG!
Here's e three songs I wanna you to listen.
There's eng sub so look at e translation kkayys? =DD

I like this song so much..
Felt like posting this song.
Hope that those who heard this song will be touched by the artist, just like i was..

2010-01-16T11:56:00.002+08:00

These few days had been days of confusion and torture for me.
Where should I go had been a question that had been bugging me.
And, finally, I made up my mind.
Seriously hoping that I wouldn't regret it.
I know its time to move on.
But seriously, I would probably feel lost without my clique of friends with me.
But, I know its time for me to move on.
Just like its time for you all to move on to and fulfil your dreams.
I would be fulfiling my dreams too two years down the road.

I had been going to open houses till everything had started to blur together.
Decision making had to be the thing that i dread e most.
I am glad that its finally over though.
These days, had also been hanging out with my class ppl.
Namely rin, evan, xe, yz, th and teng.
I never been a fan of bball but seems like I had playing it quite often these days.
Been going back NCHS quite often too.
Ohh ya. forget to mention this.
NAN CHIAU HIGH SCHOOL has become a BAND 1 SCHOOL!!
EHMAGOD. Seriously super proud and happy for all our hard work and effort put in by students and teachers alike. =DD

I think e bball doesn't like me.
Keep getting hit by it that day when me, rin, teng, evan, yz, th, jos and chooks when back NC.
Super fun but dangerous sport.
Steamboat at evan hse was super bonding and funny too.
Evan, rin, xe, hui, per, joe, yz, th, wh, tas, gary, kx, sh, ed were all present.
Did i miss out anyone's name? L0LS.
Anyway, looking forward to e steamboat later at xe's hse. =DD
more later. gtg. =DD

2010-01-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

My vision started to blurred as i stared at my results.
Millions of thoughts raced past my mind as e tears started to fall.
Are hard work really useless afterall?
Many people were smiling happily after getting their results; the same could not be said about me.
While many people are happily choosing their choice of JCs, I was crying my heart out and doubting myself and my abilities over and over again.
A mere 14 points i got for my L1R5, a score that might satisfied others, but not me.
True, I scored a B3 and above for all of my subjects.
Yet, I felt greatly disappointed in myself.
My English had only scored a B3, causing me to fall into mild depression and a familiar feeling washed over me again.
I had let my english teacher down.
A sense of helpness engulfed me as i considered my options and choices once again.
There are few JCs that I could go to.

I am beginning to lose any little confidence i have about studying and the subjects that i once excelled in.
I am Sorry, to my teachers.
I am Sorry, to my mummy and daddy.
I am Sorry, to myself.
I let people down once again.

2010-01-06T18:51:00.004+08:00

'O' coming out on 11 January 2010.
Super dreading it though.
I am so afraid of not doing well.
Can I start to pray to God now?

Good Luck to everyone! =DD

Went nyjc camp today.
It was alright.
Quite fun.
But somehow, I preferred np's red camp 6.
Nevertheless, I managed to know more about jc life and jc stuff.
Finally exercised when I am forced to run during e amazing race.
More about it when e whole nyjc camp ends tomorrow. =DD

2010-01-05T17:22:00.005+08:00

I really want to be excited about e start of a new school year again.
Yet, I am stuck at home, waking up at noon everyday and blogging nonsensical stuff, wasting every second and every min away, achieving nothing.
I felt like I am drifting, drifting away from people who mattered to me.
But, there's nothing I can do to stop it.
Can i say that i wish to be studying right now?
I am really dreading getting back my results, afraid that my hard work might not pay off after all.

Going to nyjc camp tomorrow.
Looking forward to having fun there. =D

Super sad that my fav.band - DBSK might be disbanding. Sigh.

Anyway, here's a shout out to people who walked with me together through secondary school life.
Thanks for being there.

Firstly, CHOW KHAI YIN.
Thanks for seating right in front of me during e first day of school in 2006.
This resulted in me getting to know a friend that stuck with me throughout everything.
The girl who made me laugh no matter how down i felt, shared tears with me during the syf competition, encouraged me and who is willing to talk crapp with me.
No words can describe how grateful I am to have you as a friend.
My secondary school life wouldn't have been as enjoyable if I do not know you.
I want to thank fate for letting us cross path but A BIG Thank You for being with me for e past 4 years and still counting.
Cheers to our friendship. =DD

HENG WENZI.
Hmm. We happen to know each other through dance, especially during e syf period.
You were there for me when i needed it and i deeply appreciated everything you have done for me.
Our friendship goes beyond dance; yet, dance was the bond between us.
You made me laugh with your bhbness, always citing that you are cute.
HAHAS. And even though you like to suan me for being short, you still managed to bring a smile to my face every single time.
Thank You for being such a wonderful friend.
I know that our friendship wouldn't just stop at here; it would continue to last for many many years. =DD

TANG SHUWEN DENYSE
A great and capable leader you are, always leading us to greater heights and success.
Your capability and responsibility have caused me to have admirable respect for you.
Yet, as a friend, you were always warm and a good listener.
Despite how good you are at dance, you stayed humble, always listening to others' opinions too.
You taught me e true meaning of e word 'humble'.
Thank You for being such a great Chairman of NCHS CD and for being an awesome friend to me. =DD

LOW YANHAN
Thanks for always confiding in me your troubles and secrets.
I can only promise to be a listening ear for you whenever you need it.
I believe that e hard work you put in for your studies will pay off soon.
You always tried to cheer me up whenever i felt upset and Thank You for your little cheers and for being such a great friend.
Don't worry, I wouldn't forget you. =DD

NG YEE TENG
We two have gone through a lot for e past 4 years, some resulting in tears, others bringing smiles and laughter into our lives.
You were a great person to confine in, though mostly I am listening to yours. [L0LS]
We encouraged each other during e toughest period of time - preparing for the 'O' Levels battle.I knew that you had my back, just like i had yours.
I could count on you to lend me your shoulder when I needed it. Always.
We been through the upside and downside of friendship together and that made me cherish this friendship that I have with you even more.
Thank You for this valuable friendship that taught me so much and brought about much tears and smiles. =DD

EVANGELINE HO
The first thing that came to mind when i think about this girl would be CEO of IMH.
This is followed by her calling me 'ah hua', a nickname I dread but had since grown used to.
Next, it would be her special surname which she always like to stress about. HoHoHo.
She caused a lot of headache for me, yet this friend of mine would always manage to brighten up my day without fail.
She could be my silent partner when i just needed someone to be with me; she could crack lame jokes and do silly stuffs.
And I just want to say a Thank You to you, this blur friend of mine for your silliness and silence when I needed it. =DD

LOONG XUE ER
I don't know if you remembered but you sat with me during sec 1 for a period of time.
The thing about you that I can't forget would be your love for penguins.
Though we don't always see eye to eye, I knew that I could always be frank and honest with you about anything, just like you are to me.
There's no need for me to hide my feelings when I am with you and your innocence has always led me to much laughter.
Thank You for being such a forgiving and innocent friend that I am always comfortable to be around with. =DD

VENESSA NEO SHI QI
Your warm and friendly personality, coupled with your smile always manage to make me feel at ease with you.
Remember our singing sessions in class? Remember how e four of us always stuck to each other during those days? Remember the fondue that we made for F&N class?
Remember those good old days that we had together?
For those memories had been engraved and the laughter we shared imprinted onto my heart.
Thank You my dear friend for creating those memories with me. =DD

GINETTE KEE WEN MIN
Me and you had always been more quiet in our clique, always the one to listen to their troubles.
You and me also shared the same passion for Korean bands and singers.
Somehow, being with you has always been comfortable and there are always endless topics for us to talk about even though it had been quite some time since we last talked.
Thank You for being my tuition friend and a friend that I would dearly cherish. =DD

KARIN TAN CHOON ZHI
Mummy, you are the person who was always there, cheering me up whenever you knew I was feeling down.
I deeply appreciated the concern and love you showered onto me.
Thank You for your lollipops and your little messages asking me to cheer up, not forgetting the Korean songs shared between the two of us. =DD

LENG HUI HUI
The ice queen that always cracked cold jokes and caused us all to froze, thank you for trying to bring a smile onto our life.
I am honoured to have you as a friend, who still manage to smile through life no matter what happen.
Thank you. =DD

PERLY KWEH WEI SI
Grandpa, your horniness will be deeply etched into my mind for e rest of my life.
Though we started to warm up to each other late, you created a lot of memories for me that are inerasable.
Thank You for the family[ remember happyfamily.co? ] and memories that you had created for me. =DD

Last but not least, i felt the need to thank this person.
DALLAS GUO JIAN'AN
Thanks for your support during that period of time and being my listening ear whenever I needed it.
Your understanding is greatly appreciated by me.
Though I am not sure what caused me to spill my secrets to you then, I wouldn't regret my decision.
Though you might not see this post, I just want to say a big Thank You to you though our period of communication was short. =DD

There are many people I want to thank for making my life so colourful.
Those that i particularly wanted to thank would be those that i wrote above.
Nonetheless, even if your name did not appear, I still want to thank you for entering my life at some stage.
Cliques - devilrinas a.k.a devils, happyfamily.co, siistarrs and so on - those names are ones that try as i might, would not be able to erase from my memories.
Looking back, there are many that I have to thank, teachers, friends and especially my family to make me who i am today.
A BIG Thank You to my teachers - Mr.Tien, Ms.Teo, Mr. Tee, Ms. Joseph, 郭老师, Mr. Koh, Ms. Tan, 郑老师, Mdm. Tang and etc. for pushing me to my limits and for believing in me.
Teachers from NCHS are a great asset to e school and e students.
NCHS, a great and awesome school that has allow me to cross paths with all these wonderful people in this 4 years.
My beloved class of 4E 09' that created much trouble for me and caused me to lost my temper and shed tears in e dark, thank you for the good and bad memories that had been created because of all of you.
You all are still the best and e most fun and funniest class to me. =]
1E 06' 2E 07' 3E 08' 4E 09'.
The unforgettable faces and memories, people i had grown to love and hate, Thank You.
NCHS CHINESE DANCE
My dearest seniors and juniors, as well as the devils.
We stuck to each other and helped each other, encouraging each other on as we live our passion.
Dance would always hold a special place in our hearts.
And NCHS CD was where all of this started.

As I bade 2009 a farewell, I tried to forget all the unhappiness of that year and instead, remember only e good ones.
2009 had been a special year for me - going into battle, fully armed, ready to take on 'O' Levels.
But I knew that 2010 will be an even special year, with each year getting better and better.
As I baded farewell, I shall be welcoming e new year, 2010, with a smile on my face. =]

2010-01-02T20:36:00.002+08:00

Been a super busy week fillied with shopping mostly.
Hmm.. Let's see.

28 December 2009.
I went to Devils' gathering at someone's house for a belated Christmas party.
Met up with sx, ky, wz, nyse to buy yh's present.
The most funny part was when we had to pretend that we never met each other at an earlier time and instead, just got off e bus and etc.
As me and wz were the latest to reach earlier on, we both pretended to be late in order to convince e rest.
Headed on to party when all the devils had reached.
The food was fab and I was 'forced' to eat 4 chicken wings.
First time I had to eat so many.
But, ky ate e most. Thanks arrh! =]
I almost couldn't eat my food as ky and sx made me laugh all the way.
Warning to all, please don't sit near ky and sx when you are eating. =]
Eat, laugh and we watched some videos. =DD
Exchanged presents, watched some videos and we went home.
Sorry, couldn't elaborate much.
But it was an awesome gathering with e devils. <3<3

29 December 2009.
I was supposed to attend primary school friends' gathering.
But was too tired from last night's gathering so didn't attend.
Hoped they had fun.
I spent e whole day slacking at home though. Hahas.

30 December 2009.
Went to Orchard there e Sakura for buffet with family.
Daddy's treat. =DD
It was heaven for me when I saw the sashimi. [ Teng, don't jealous. =DD ]
Food was good, though its a bit salty.
Thumbs up for e food there though.
Daddy went off to work while i went shopping with mum and sis.
Shop, shop and more shopping.
Went to check out e disc price of DBSK.
Ehmagod. Damn expensive.
30 plus dollars for about 6 tracks only.
Not all their albums are sold here too.
Korean discs are sold damn expensively here.
One of e album frome one singer costed 100. o.O
Walked around but didn't managed to buy any stuff.
Headed down to Hougang mall before finally going home.

31 December 2009.
New year eve but headed down to Bugis to shop with family.
My sis bought some stuff, i bought some and my mummy bought some.
I spent e least that day though.
Finally, i bought a dress with lace on it.
Hahas. I was quite shocked myself too.
But e dress is nice so i bought it.
Headed home after a day of endless shopping and count down at home.
Watched the fireworks on tv.

1 January 2010.
Happy New Year.
A brand new year, representing a brand new start for me.
Still couldn't get used to saying its year 2010 now.
Yet, I have to get used to it.
Went out with my jie and her mum, together with my family, to shop at marina and suntec.
Shop, eat, talk and laugh.
Mummy treated ice cream waffles and tuna sandwiches at Gelare.
Nice! Cookies and Cream ice-cream is delicious, especially when coupled with hot, yummy waffles. =D
My ah mum treated us to Sushi Tei.
Highly recommended for people who loves japanese cuisine.
Thumbs up! =D
Ended the day with arms full of shoes from Charles and Keith and a brand new wallet from there.
A good start to a new year. =]

2 January 2010.
Had a 5 devils' gathering today for a surprise belated birthday celebration for yh.
Went to marina barrage and it was a super sunny day!
Super hot.
The scenery there was super nice.
Took lots of photos and I shall let e photos do e talking when i upload it.
in short, it was a day of sunshine and smiles.
wz, ky, nyse and yh. <3<3

2009-12-25T23:27:00.001+08:00

I just felt the need to say this before e clock strikes 12 tonight.
"A very merry christmas to all of you!"
L0LS. Enjoy e last half an hr. =DD

2009-12-25T12:18:00.006+08:00

me and wz! =]

me and nyse! =]

me, wz, yh! =]

5 devils dancing 'nobody'. L0LS!

5 devils enjoying the view. =D

23 december 2009.

A day filled with sushine, laughters and unforgettable memories.

Though the morning started off with a storm brewing in my house, the storm cleared once when i met up with e 3 devils - yh, nyse and ky.

I was late, as usual, but this time, it really wasn't my fault.

I arrivied at e bus stop, feeling apologetic about being late for 1 hr, while at the same time feeling pissed after e quarrel at home.

Anyhow, i cheered up and we went to wz's house to give her a belated birthday surprise!

We (I), ding dong her bell and wz was shocked when she saw us through the peep-hole, holding her present. HAHAS.

More laughters were heard ringing down the corridor when wz saw the board that we did for her.

Especially the i and the e on the board.

Glad that she likes her present.

Next, we headed down to e nearby coffee shop to have our lunch.

Wz joined us at e bus stop, armed with tibits for our pinic later.

We boarded the bus in a super funny way and me and yh were listening to emo songs while ky, wz and nyse were having a whale of a time laughing as they took random photos.

We arrivied at White Sands and waited for a super long time for the bus to Pasir Ris beach to come.

We finally arrivied at the beach and ky was in a hurry trying to find a good pinic spot.

I went up to e small cliff and just enjoyed the view.

Ky came to accompany me and we took some random photos.

Nyse came to accompany me after ky went to get her food.

All of them came up after that and we took some random shots of us.

The sunny weather cause wz to take out her shades and we started saying that she looked like some movie star, especially when she wore our devil's hat later.

I played with her shades for awhile and took more pictures.

After awhile, we started to get bored and decided to rent bikes.

Okayy, I have to admit, I couldnt ride.

So me and ky ended up riding a double-seater, with me screaming at the back!

And the worst thing was that i had totally forgotten about ky's bad eyesight till she told me when we were nearing the end of it. L0LS.

We took about 5 mins to start e bike whenever we stopped and it was hilarious trying to ride e small double-seater.

Anyways, we took alot of photos and wrote words in the sand, went into the cool and inviting seawater and played frisbee!

Yh fell and injuried her leg so she wasn't able to join us playing frisbee.

Ky and me was quite hopeless at that game - i was mostly chasing after e frisbee or picking it up. L0LS.

Got a group of ah-bengs don't know what they were trying to do but e others said they keep called my name.

I think it was due to me wearing class tee. Urgh.

A piece of advice - don't wear class tee unless you are with your class.

Anyway, we packed up and left the place, stopping to change our hairstyle and take photos.

We finally left and had dinner at White Sands.

The day ended when i went back home with ky in the bus 53.

We couldn't stop laughing when we recalled our sec 1 and 2 life. Wahahas!

It was a day filled with sun, sand and smiles with the 5 devils!

Looking forward to our next belated christmas celebration on the 28th december.

More photos next time.

For some reason that i don't know, i couldn't upload anymore photos.

So i shall upload more next time. =]

2009-12-22T14:55:00.005+08:00

Finally, i could finally say buh-bye to working.
Working had been, overall, an eye-opening experience for me.
It was all about responsibility all again.
Waking up at 8am every morning was such a chore and a nightmare.
Yet, when i got into e office, i got into the rhythm of office life soon enough, even enjoying the repetitive work and the quiet and peaceful environment.
I am thankful for meeting such an amazing boss and colleagues that were quite tolerant of the mess that i had made, it being my pioneer experience working in admin.
For that experience had made me taste the bittersweet working life and made me wished that i am studying in school again, with no need to fret about making any mistake.
Though the pay had been good, I felt only guilt during the last two days working.
Oh well, it had been quite a week.
Now, i am waiting for payment so that I can buy gifts for teachers whom i am extremely grateful to.
Working, would be an experience that i would never be able to forget.
But, for now, I am going to re-enjoy my holidays while waiting for the release of my results, which i hope would not be a disappointment.

I felt as though I had lost touch with many people.
People - friends.
In seemed like only yesterday that we were laughing our heads off at some silly stuffs.
Yet, it had been awhile since i last contact a lot of you all.
We all seemed to be busy with work or other stuff; too busy to even manage a message.
Whose fault would it been then?
Yours, or mine?
I asked myself that question, only to realise that it's a chicken and egg question with no answer.
How was it that we could be knit-tight just a few months before but might be struggling to come up with some common topics to chat about when we next met?
Would anyone be free if i were to ask you out for a cup of cuppa?

Publications from polys have been appearing in my letterbox lately.
I was particularly attracted to NP's.
Their open house is from 7-9 jan.
Anyone available and interested to go with me on any of these days?
NYJC day camp on 7, 8 jan.
Yet, i wonder who remembered.
Cause i might be attending it alone on those days.

Going into the media field was a recent dream of mine, one that just only began during my secondary school life.
I knew that it wouldn't be an easy path to venture into.
Strangely enough, I am attracted to the challenges that would await me if i have enough courage to.
Courage - it seems easy to draw it up, yet, I am failing quite miserably.
Should i really just gave up this dream of mine and chose something less risky and less challenging?
This holiday had been weeks of self-reflection and experience.
Life is short enough; why can't i just immerse myself into doing things that i like and just enjoy myself?
Yet, reality always seemed to pull me back and held me tight in it's embrace.
I shall leave things to fate.
Everything, my decisions and all would be revealed on the 12 of jan next year.
Hopefully, i would have the courage to walk on with my decision then and never look back.

I learnt to put down the heavy burden that i had been carrying around for the last 2 years.
Its about time anyway.
You cease to exist to me day after day, weeks after weeks, months after months.
The pain had stopped throbbing; it had dulled and is fading away.
I am finally able to move on. =]

2009-12-11T22:04:00.005+08:00

I Love You

This is a song sung by my favourite singer in DBSK - MAX CHANGMIN.
I can't help but swoon when he sang this song. Heehees. =DD
But e lyrics are meaningful.
Here's another song by another DBSK member - HERO JAEJOONG
Both songs speak my mind.
Enjoy. =]

Footsteps

Personally, i think e word 'hate' is too strong a word to use.
Yet, i guess when one can't love, one starts to hate instead.
I really love e song by Jaejoong.
My vision starts to blur whenever i heard this song. T.T
Reminded me of some stuff.. Oh well.

Here's another by DBSK member - XIAH JUNSU.
RAINY NIGHT

All of e songs that i have posted up from DBSK members are live performances.
And thats how good they are.
Their dances are just as nice as their voices too. =DD

Started working at admin on thursday.
I have to faced e computer from 9am to 6pm.
Its tiring and e work is quite repetitive.
Yet, I am grateful that i have a job.
I have forgotten how tiring working is.
Update more next time when i am less tired. Hahas.

In e meantime, enjoy this two video by all of DBSK.
They are a korean band, yet they can sing in many languages.
So talanted. E videos i posted are songs sung in either jap or korean. =]

2009-12-08T21:25:00.004+08:00

As promised, here to blog about e events that happened today.
Firstly, today was supposed to be 6 of us devils' outing but in e end, only got me, ky, yh and wz.
DENYSE! Get well soon alright? Must get loads of rest!
Sx's unavailable as usual. Sigh.
I would be lying if i were to say that i ain't disappointed about her saying she can't make it again.
E 6 of us used to be tight.
But recently, i realised that we are not as close as we once thought before.
It all boils down to each of our own, individual effort and input.
Friendship is difficult to forge; maintaining a friendship is just as difficult.
I just hope that each and every one of us will be able to return to like it was during dance-close and tight.
Anyway, back to today.
I was e earliest to arrive today!
What a miracle.
But was actually going to meet xe early to pass her her disc but i was too late.
So end up being e first to arrive.
Ky was second to arrive.
But we are on time.
Yh was last. WAHAHAS.
We couldnt find her so we decided to meet at Dhoby instead.
We went to book tickets, laughed all e way, then me and yh watched ky eat her lunch at Pastamania.
Wz went M.I.A so we went to search for her..
Wz, CHEER UP!
We would always be there for you if you need it.
You need not keep your unhappiness to yourself alright?
We are just a phone call away.
Anyway, went The Cathay to watch New Moon.
I was explaining e plot to yh most of e time.
E movie is boring. Book is much nicer.
But i have to say that New Moon isn't interesting or nice to read anyway.
So its kind of difficult to gauge how good this movie is.
After movie we went to walk around Orchard.
For some reason, they keep want to go Robinson. -.-
I wasn't interested to so we didn't went in.
We went up to e rooftop at Central.
Wow. The view is awesome.
Too bad it wasn't at night though.
All else i would be star-gazing instead.
Nonetheless, i cloud-gazed instead.
I hoped i would be able to go up and star-gaze soon.
I really love stars.
It might be e way they shine, with little light to provide, yet, still able to mesmerise me.
I hope that one day, i would be someone else's star and guide them along their path.
We went to e new mall, 313 at Somerset.
Shopping there should be fun, though most of e stores are repeated again. Sigh.
There isn't much innovation from e stores though.
Hoping to see more new concept and more singapore shops opening in those malls.
Lastly, we walked to Far East but we decided to stop at Ion and just sit down at Starbucks instead.
Bought coffee and gossips and jokes were shared before we finally headed home.
Home Sweet Home.

Good news!
I finally got e job. YAY!
Admin stuff, near my house.

I am currently addicted to Gossip Girl series!
Plus DBSK stuff!
For those of you who don't know, DBSK is an extremely famous korean band that is super talented! [HEEHEES.]
Thats all for today i guess. =]

2009-12-03T16:51:00.005+08:00

1st December 2009.
I woke up early to prepare for chalet.
Went to teng's house with xe evan and hui.
But i was late cause waiting for e cheesecake baked by my mum to be ready.
At teng's house, we did some stuff before we went off to the chalet at about 2 plus.
We made a detour to cp to fetch joe with her bottles of drinks.
A big shout out to teng's father for driving us there and to joe for bringing e drinks.
Thank you both!
We reached the chalet early, with no idea what to do except to wait for the arrival of Mr Tee.
That was when joe said that she brought along poker cards and we started playing e game Cheat.
It was hilarious in the middle of e game, especially when i got some of e cards and knew when people had cheated.
The biggest laughter coming out of us, i mean them was when i shouted out to whoever was cheating at that time 'you actually dared to cheat in front of me?!' in Chinese.
Everyone was stunned then all burst out laughing, including me, while e pathetic cheater who was exposed by yours truly meekly took e cards while she continued to laugh.
The sight of Mr Tee arriving interrupted e game as he passed the keys to us and asked us to walk there to open the door while he enjoyed the cool breeze from the air condition in his Subaru car in the hot humid weather.
He was so heartless. [HAHAS]
But i happy to say that we are almost on par with the speed of his car when we arrived at the door at almost e same time.
We booked the two best rooms for e girls and i hurried to ensure that everything in e list was there.
That's when i realised that i am hopeless in e kitchen.
i was utterly stumped and defeated with all e cutlery and utensils and stuff found in the kitchen.
Thank God when my called for help was answered though.
Xe and Karin were send to bring people in to the chalet while me teng and evan initially planned to look for a perfect spot on the beach for e games.
We gave up in the end and decided to play e games out at the driveway instead.
While teng and evan prepared e games, it was exercise for me as i stroll back and forth finding any lost souls who are unable to find their way to e chalet.
And i m happy to say that i found two - th and cy! [L0LS]
When everyone who are coming early had arrived, we started the games.
It was a bit upsetting when they refused to be punished or even to play the games properly.
It also kinda of upset teng so while the rest were bbq-ing,i pulled her out for a walk walk.
And heavy clouds were gathering too so i was quite worried that it would rain.
Thank heaven it was only a slight drizzle.
Well, e highlight of this chalet had to be that me and teng meet wh cy and th at e pool.
i laughed my head off initially and didn't manage to really stop feeling high all e way.
Their goofy ways and all somehow just lifted our mood.
But e craziness all started when teng asked if want to just jump into e pool.
i agreed and we jumped in - with our clothes on.
We even had a competition with th and cy and we WON! [HEEHEES]
Next, we went up and down e slide.
I thought i was going to laugh my head off when the three guys went down the slide together.
The jacuzzi was really heaven when we sink into the frothing, warm water after the chlorine-filled, cold water in e pool.
We talked a bit and stuff, splashed water about, send water up in e air and basically, had fun.
Xe evan yz gab came out to look for us and to rent majong table.
xe joined us in e jacuzzi and we all did a dare to go down e slide into e freezing water.
We did it!
More laughter and we went back when e person ic called us out as there was lightning alert.
Meet those who went to rent majong stuff and we all headed back.
The alluring aroma of bbq food greeted us as our stomachs started rambling.
The head chef, tee, was cooking at e bbq while his assistant, joseph was carrying an umbrella to prevent e slight drizzle from destroying e food.
A SUPER BIG Thank You to Ms Joseph for preparing e food for us and marinating them and Mr Tee for helping us booked e chalet and being such a great chef.
I can proudly say that e food was awesome! =DD
Guo lao shi popped by and even played majong with e girls.
At about 1plus, e food was finally cleared and some of us retreated into e room to do our stuff.
Xe evan me teng kar per joe started out playing cards and evan and joe was forced to do forfeit when they lost. [L0LS]
It was really fun and funny.
Then, we had a heart-to-heart talk with each other.
It was then that we really connected with each other and get to really know each other.
I know my secrets and stuff will not be leaked out of e room, just as you all trusted me to keep yours.
Thanks for all those memories with you all for e past 4 years in this school.
You all are what creates e memories in this school and made it special for me.
Thank you, each and every one of you who somehow stumbled along into my path or was stuck with me through it all.
The chalet ended with us in a half asleep mood the next morning while we dragged our weary self to home, where our cosy and warm bed are calling out to us.

This is it.
We are finally off to further discover ourselves, going our separate ways, heading towards different routes and fulfilling our own dreams along e way.
We might or might not meet again but somehow, we met each other at this crossroad-NCHS.
An unforgettable journey with each and every one of us that let me experienced all sorts of emotions-laughter, happiness, blissfulness, sadness, emoness, tears, anger and disappointment.
Yet, i don't regret walking down this route and meeting all of you all.
You all helped to create pictures and memories that would be dearly cherished, for me.
Without you all, i would just be an empty shell waiting to be filled.
I sincerely hope that each one of us will be able to pursue your own dreams and happiness.
All e best, everyone.

Reading Matt's blog really inspired me.
Somehow, he made me really want to make my dreams a reality.
I had the same goal as he has.
Yet, i m doubting myself and am still hesitating.
Though he might not even know my existence, he influenced me, one way or another.
Just wanna thank him.
Thank you, for inspiring me, Matt.
Though i might not have e courage to, you got me thinking about doing it.
A quote from his blog "Dreams are simply reality waiting to happen."

你说的话在我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心很疼
记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉另外一个人
我等等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候比较真

太多疑问
知道答案
又如何原来容忍
不需要天份
只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

I have really given up.
It just seemed too impossible.
We would be going our different ways and hopefully, this secret of mine would remain as it is- a secret.
We might talk, we might not.
But i wish you all e best for your future.

2009-11-29T01:06:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night left me quite pissed and disappointed.
But i woke up to a day, devoid of all emotions.
I had thought it out already.
I m glad if everyone could turn up.
But if they dont, its alright.
We shall have fun with those who did.
I dont know how it turned out to be like this.
But i m seriously glad that i wouldnt be seeing some people again.
Those who are my true friends are people who would bother to keep in touch with me.
Those that didnt bother or i didnt bother to means nothing to me then.
They are just a phrase that i m going through with.
It would pass.

Just hoping it will be a success this coming tues..

2009-11-24T13:51:00.003+08:00

Finally blogging again after months of non-blogging.
Okayy ppl, you all are only gonna hear this from me once.
I miss studying. =X
What a surprise right?
But seriously, now that i no longer have to mug for 'o's, i miss it.
The contantancy, the knowing of what to do for that day.
Now that all has ended, i am feeling lost in this world.
Who am i, what is my purpose here, what am i going to do next.
It's all starting to feel surreal for me.
Where do i belong?

Red Camp 6
It is the best camp that i have attend.
The atmosphere and environment was great.
Warm and friendly SLs that make this camp special for us.
Amazing MCs ( especially matthew's voice. =DD )
Good food, a mass dance that manage to bond us all as one.
We even broke two singapore records!
How awesome is that?
Cheers that make us go wild, unite us as one, regardless of tribes.
What Camp? Red Camp 6!
VIKINGS OYE, VIKINGS! Horny horny. =]
It was really a unforgettable experience for me, one that would forever be with me even as this camp end.
Who knows, maybe i would go to NP next year and be one of e SL next year..

PROM NIGHT
Well, i have to say that i feel kind of bored there.
Not much events and programmes, food that was nearly gone by e time i manage to reach it.
Actually, i was throughly bored there. =X
People thought that i was emo but actually, just bored. =]
Behind e camera most of e time, helping ppl to capture memories of this night for them.
I quite regret attending as i miss a job opportunity when i went to shop for a dress instead of accepting e offer.
Oh well, its my choice afterall.
Sorry if this offend anyone but seriously, i think its kind of fake when ppl go around pretending to be good friends with each other like forever when they took pictures with ppl they are not familiar with.
Its just so not me.
So, that day ended early for me..

Well, 'o's finally is over.
I m not sure how i felt about it.
Kind of glad that its over, at the same time missing school.
Read a inspirational blog today that got me thinking about my goal in life again.
I always wanted to go into Business to help my family someday.
But recently, been thinking about going into mass comm journalism.
I aint sure if i could write beautifully, inspire ppl with words that i wrote.
Yet, writing never fails to give me a sense of satisfication.
I doubt myself over and over again, especially when even my family think that i wouldnt be suitable for this job.
They think that in this line, a lot of it has to do with connections and having a extendable networking connection that is broad.
I have to agree with them to a large extend.
i just m not that type.
But all i could say is, i want to write, to inspire others, to let others read my work.

2009-09-17T22:10:00.003+08:00

It been a long time since i pen down my thoughts and feelings.
Or in this case, mose or key it down. L0ls.
Been having tests after tests for e past few wks.
And failing them.
Super demoralise.
Cannt wait for o levels to be over.

Going back dance tomorrow.
Gonna find back my confidence and do something that i love.
Been feeling lost for e past few days.
No idea what i wanna do, where i wanna go.
Dance studio, is my haven.
Dancing, is my passion.
Without these and e devils, it would have been hard to survive.

Going back to dance to experience all this juzt for one more day.
E laughter we share, e dances we learn, e fun that we have.
after that, gonna strive hard to attain my goals.

And just for that, i will work super hard.
Cause after o, i will be dancing again. =]

Hmm. i m thinking of deleting this blogg. i will soon. =]

2009-07-31T18:43:00.002+08:00

平常心
街道静的刺耳
夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前
先上车不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得不想再拉扯
我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可

2009-06-17T23:04:00.001+08:00

let e music speak miie thoughts for t'dae.

2009-06-17T22:49:00.001+08:00

Outside Looking In
Jordan Pruitt

You don't know my name
you don't know anything about me
I try to play nice
I want to be in your game
The things that you say
You may think I never hear about them
But word travels fast
I'm telling you to your face
I'm standing here behind your back

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
on the outside looking in

If you could read my mind
You might see more of me that meets the eye
And you've been all wrong
Not who you think I am
You've never given me a chance

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
on the outside looking in

Well, I'm tired of staying at home
I'm bored and all alone
I'm sick of wasting all my time

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
on the outside looking in

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
on the outside looking in

2009-06-17T22:39:00.002+08:00

Over You
Chris Daughty

Now that it's all said and done,I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

2009-06-15T23:09:00.005+08:00

Short post today.
Hmm..
i admit that i was really quite upset that dae after hearing about it.
i doubted myself, questioned myself over and over again.
Had a hard time convincing myself that things will be alright.
But i managed it. HAHAS.
Round of applause for me, please. Just kidding. =]
Realise that sometimes, being overly concern over something is no good.
Pardon my bad english.
But yea, decide to just have a heck care attitude when required.
It's time for me to butt out.
HA HA HA.
Pardon me. Abit high to write emo stuffs now.

About 4 more months til i am officially getting out of here.
i might not be going back dance.
sometimes, putting in effort ain't no use.
Focusing on only my studies now.
Didnt think it was possible then.
i guess time really change someone.
i am gonna work v.hard to get into e school of my choice.

It hurts.
i m sorry.

At times, my life felt lik a rollercoaster ride; out of contol, e rider unable to get a firm grip on anything.
At others, i felt really high and contented with everything; my life and what fate have to present me.
But no matter what, i will stay positive and be thankful for everything.
Thank you all who have reached out a hand to help me in whatever little way.
And to those who had hurt me, well, whatever.
Let e past remain in e past.
Forgive and Forget. [alliteration!] :)

2009-06-07T15:12:00.002+08:00

well, haven't been blogging for abt half yr now.
been a tiring and busy yr.
no hols for miie.
can't wait till after 'o's.
but till then, i shall stop day-dreaming and start working hard. =X

16years of existence and i really start to doubt myself.
what great acheivement do i have, what have i done, what have i contributed.
how many friends have been really there for miie??
whatever. maybe i m a emo person.
soo what?? there's always a reason.
in life, everything always happen for a reason.

not gonna blogg anymore.

find it meaningless.

thanks, devils, fer e birthdae song.
i nt used to people doing this fer miie soo was quite embarass. hahas. =]
thanks, sharon jie jie, devils and yt fer e birthdae presents.

2009-01-01T18:32:00.005+08:00

i kw its a long long time since i last update..
guilty as charged.
hahas. been busy.
anywae, e new yr is finally here.

reflection on yr 2008:
realise that i make alot of mistakes along e wae.
i admit, i m no superwoman. i do make mistakes bt i m nt proud of dat..
sorry if i hurt anyone along e wae.
did badly in miie studies in dat yr.
quite regret.
1st time in 15yrs.
2008 had been a rocky road to travel on.
bt along e wae, deres many who make e journey smooth and fun-filled.
special thnx to: evan,wz,hui,ky and many others who help miie along e wae..
thnx to people fr 1e 06' and 2e o7' fer walkiin with miie fer e past 2yrs.
u guys brought joy to miie world.
to people fr 3e 08',repeated thnx to those fr 2e. L0LS.
jux beginin to kw new ppl.
quite appreciate e ppl in this class.
for this class, e road is stil a long long wae to go.
jiayouus ba. before fun comes e hard wk.

resolutions fer 2009.
i wanna keep an open mind on everyting.

study hard an stop being lazy.
need to wk hard towards 'o'levels soo dat i can have miie freedom.
lets jux sezz i really wanna have mie freedom.
cause i wanna go learn drums and learn 2 new languages.
jap, french, Spanish or Korean. any 2.

to fergt u..

to really cherish every single dae and evry single moment an second in dance and in sec4.
time is ticking by; sec4 gonna breeze by v.fast.
i will really miss dance and e devils alot alot.
nt fergtin e juniors..
bt seriously, i miiss our time with our seniors.
memories of dance is soo damn unforgettable to miie..
class of e, each an every memory is also quite precious to miie.
remember e first dae of sch everyone??
everyone was soo blurr and todd.
hahas. miie included.
i was centre-parting. same as ky. WAHAHAS. =DD
i remember ky was sitting in front of miie with jl.
jl look soo cool and gangsta.
beside miie was rachel.t.
such a coincidence that both of us was actually beside one another in terms of index no.
den later she change with xe.
first impression of her, she loves penguin v.much.
fast forward one yr, cant remember much abt first dae, bt remember many other memories.
like e fitness corner where gt our swing.
soo much fun an memories dere.
den last dae of term4, which is when we goiin seperated waes, we cried lik siao after hearin e song ku cha by lolipop and hei se hui mei mei.
stil remember this song, ppl??
dat yr was full of memories, both heartbreakin sad and happy joyful ones.
heartbreakin ones choose nt to remember. onlyremember those great ones. =]
fastforward to last yr, most memorable would be camp an chalet.
chalet next time den update.
camp, jux when we beginning to kw one another better.
it make our class more united.
accordin to evan, i shouted at e class to scold them fer being soo uncooperative.
i dunn remember la. hahaas.
e games wae really v.bondin.
chalet, really gt to kw more of e guys better.
nt 2e guys. e others.
find dat they r really quite okayy and fun.
plus some quite humorous.
games was okayy i guess??
since is miie evan xe plan de soo no comments.
back to this yr, really hopiin our class will be even stronger as one.
only den will e memories be even sweeter and our class as united.

i dunn wanna be chair..
nt because i m scared of e wk and e responsibility.
is cause i dunn have e confidence to be able to do a gd job an lead e class to greater heights.
i dunn wann e pressure.
an gt ying yin fr pri sch when i m monitor.
everyting e cher also blame u if class no gd.
lik class nt quiet ur fault.
in sec sch, ppl skip class will also tio miie de.
sigh. i dunn wanna hai them.
soo hope no one skip class this yr. please.
soo ppl, dunn blame miie if i dunn do it well.
i really dunn kw wat can i do..
will try miie best an hope its enough..

dats all fer now. will be bloggin even lesser now.
need to study study an study. =DD

2008-12-13T21:18:00.002+08:00

back to bloggiin.
been absent fr internet fer a few wks.
too busy.
let c..

29nov[sat]:
miie idol,winnie performance at victoria concert hall.
gt her e performance we clap v.loudly.
somemore when she solo we all cheer lik siiao.
end up soo ps.
totally worth it.
i wish i can dance as gd as her man.
oh well, nt gonna come true la.

30nov[sun]:
went down bugis with mum an siis.
fergt wat i do le.
only kw comfirm is gt shop.

1dec[mon]:
swimmin with teng early in e mornin at hougang.
was suppose to go with e rest to sk de.
bt they sezz close fer maintaince end up only miie an teng at hougang.
did lap swimmin in e middle pool.
use bricks fer some ls stuffs.
i drink water lo.
hahas.
finally kw teng de ku zhong. L0LS.
let teng tow miie.
hai hao la.
i trust her with miie life man.
went back hm den continue clear wk i tink..

2dec[tues]:
went IKEA with family.
bought mirrors an a light.
eat alot dere too.
i lik e food!
e meatballs an chicken wings nt bad. =]
long time since really go out with family.
quite miss it. been too busy. sigh.

3dec[wed]:
do wk.
went tution.
felt damn lousy dat dae.
cried.

6dec[sat]:
teng's birthdae!
happy belated to u. =]
bt i wish her by sms le.
went swimmin with ky,wz,denyse,yh at sk.
end up only miie an denyse swim.
ky cannt.
den we teach her til give up. L0LS.
kinda miss e devils gettin together.
feel lik it had been such a long time since we all can gather..
hopefully christmas wk can go out yea??

8dec[mon]:
went xe hse to plan with evan.
hahas. crazy us.
meet with jas hui dathne jl teng at hougang to shop fer food.
soo last min right??
hahas. den miie evan went to xe hse continue plan.
journey to her hse was lik crazy??
miie an evan lamin.
den go past IMH we were lik dao jia liiao.
L0LS. someting lik dat. [details on evan blog]
reach her hse, store e food an we went to cal everyone one by one abt tmrrow chalet.
an ppl they dunn dare talk to they push to miie.
wow. wat a bunch of great frens. =DD [jkin.]
a few is i help cal la thou.hahas.
went went mum sis and aunt.
eat subway. soo damn full.
walk fr kovan back hm to digest.

more tmrrow.
gtg.
i miss everyone. =DD

2008-11-26T18:46:00.002+08:00

well, i kw i long time nv post le.
cause i lazy online and all.
diconnect fr world again.
hahas. anywae is dance dance and more dance this wk.
sunday, went shoppin after tution.
bought some shorts.
was actually bad mood dat dae.
bt shoppin jux manage to cheer miie up and make miie high.
i told miie mum she sezz i piantai. L0LS.
monday, woke up early.
went hui hse do ss essay.
an jux went i was goiin out, i realise dat that dae is 24nov.
which means dat e NCWO ppl goiin genting.
SO SORRY TO EVAN HO!!
i fergt dat dae was 24.
soo i fergt to send u e msg and cal u.
oh well, gd luck and jiayouus arrh.
come back cal miie arrh, evan.
ate at hui's hse.
wow. alot of food i first time eat or rarely eat de lo.
its nice thou. =]
anywae after dat meet wenzi and go dance.
soo tiring.
tuesdae, wake up early again and go meet jl @ serangoon.
she overslept and only woke up when i cal her. -.-
an i cal her tel her sezz i wil late.
end up she later.
den she fergt bring an do someting end up go her hse.
den went down kovan cause she wanna ask someting.
an meet someone at cp to go dat person hse.
i watch la bi xiao xin.
OMG. he soo cute eh.
long time nv watch le. soo funny lo.
after dat finish le rush to sch fer dance.
i thot i was late.
sms wenzi no reply til i reach sch.
hahas. an she waste her msg cause i come in she send.
sorry eh, wz. =]
tiring as usual.
hope gt a gold next yr.
after dance called fer ji he.
cause gt letter fr dearest qy mummiie.
yanhan read to everyone.
an they were lik correctiin her eng. HAHAS.
oh ya, sixian came back fr australia an keep talkiin abt her shuai ges dere.
practically drooliin lo she. =DD
anywae glad dat shes back.
dance become noisy. =]
went back hm after dat.
was crapping abt us being shi xiong di.
i m lao san. =DD

update more when have time.
busy chiongin wk these daes. =]

2008-11-18T18:57:00.002+08:00

went exercise with evan gli and xe t'dae.
bball first.
fun. i tackled gli an e score was 2-1.
miie 2. gli 1.
woots.
i realise too long nv bball really will become damn lousy.
wahahas.
evan have to leave fer piano soo we went back cp eat.
talk abt chalet stuffs.
i m lookiin forward to it.
bt, i dunn tink i can go.
cause next dae gt dance camp.
miie parents makiin miie choose one only. chalet or dance camp.
quite sad actually.
oh well, i shall try to persuade miie parents.
wish miie luck.
anywae went back to swim after lunch.
crowded t'dae.
saw some shuai ges.
wa, alot of six pack de lo.
hahas. an gli gt 'sore eyes' cause she saw some tings.
soo ee.
swim abt 30 laps only.
ng yee teng!
i wanna u pei miie swim laps next wk!!
GET WELL SOON! =DD
swim le went hougang mall meet mum an siis.
den come back hm.
now gonna eat dinner.
hungry le la.
update more soon. =]

2008-11-17T21:25:00.002+08:00

yesterdae went to flyer dere eat Popeye.
cause its heard its nice and sharon jie jie wanna treat.
its nt bad.
den went to suntec.
bought a dress.
simple an nice.
tmrrow gonna go plae bball an swim.
lookiin forward. =]

2008-11-15T23:16:00.003+08:00

nothiin much to update soo wasnt bloggin these daes.
i was totally disconnected with e world.
nv blog, nv online and nv really sms anyone.
jux reply msg only.
hahas. can sezz i tired den bo chap la.
tues went swimmin with xe karen gli and teng.
swam 40plus lap an was lik dat tired.
plae with e slides, screamin all e wae.
den i dunn dare plae le.
went to swim with karen.
den after dat went eat.
an plae bball.
karen and teng went off.
joined by hui an evan.
we plae at hai wei hse e bball court.
an a grp of guys in e other half court keep wanna plae with us.
we sezz no den bo chap them.
which i tink is bad.
hahas. den later a malay guy came.
and come an sezz they wana join.
gli sezz we noob cannt.
den he sezz they noobie too.
den gli sezz noob an noobie diff club cannt.
had lot of fun.
tirin and fun.
at e same time can jian fei.
soo cool. =DD

2008-11-07T16:21:00.003+08:00

Right Here, Right Now
High School Musical 3

[Troy}
Can you imagine, what would happen
if we could have any dream.
I'd wish this moment, was ours to own it
and that it would never leave.
Then I would thank that star,
that made our wish come true (come true)
Oh, yeah
Cause he knows that where you are, is where I should be too.
Right Here, Right Now
I’m looking at you, and my heart loves the view
Cause you mean everything
Right Here, I promise you somehow
That tomorrow can wait, some other day to be (to be)
But right now there's you and me.

[Gabriella]
It feels like forever, what could be better?
We've already proved it was.
That two thousand words, twenty three hours, have blended the universe.
Its gonna be, everything (everything)
in our whole world changed
(it starts changing)
and do know that when we are, (when we are)
our memory's the same
oh no,oh no

[Troy & Gabriella]
Right Here, Right Now (right now)
Im looking at you,and my heart loves the view
Cause you mean everything (everything)
Right Here, I promise you somehow (somehow were gonna)
That tomorrow can wait, some other day to be (to be)
But right now there's you and me.
Oh we know its coming (coming)
Oh its coming fast
Its always you and me, oh yeah
So lets make this second last
make it last.

[Troy]
Right here,

[Gabriella]
Ooohh Right now.

[Troy]
Yeah I’m looking at you,

[Gabriella]
And my heart loves the view

[Troy]
’Cause you mean everything

[Troy & Gabriella]
Right Here, I promise you somehow.
That tomorrow can wait, some other day to be (to be)
But right now there's you and me
You and me
you and me
Ohh You and me
But right now there's you and me

this song is nice.
hahas.
meaningful an sweet.
pretty much sum up wat a guy wanna sezz to a girl or vice-versa.

to those who kw,
hey, i kw u all r concern.
thnx alot. i mean it.
bt i m strong.
an if i dunn wiish to sezz it means i m nt ready.
maybe somedae i will tel u all why..
i nt gonna emo cause i promise someone i nt gonna to le.
soo yea, i m strong..
dunn worry.
to evan,
i nt gonna do dat too.
cause i promise u le ma.
as fer stargaze e promise,
let miie jux sezz i try bt i dunn promise alright.
hahas. =DD

nt blogiin emo tings on this blogg le.
writin miie another self dere.
e happy miie shall remain here.

have chem spa t'dae.
i was confident of myself..
til i step out an we were discussin ans.
an i realise dat i fergt to put impurities such as blah blah.
hahas.
its over.
i dunn care le.
mr tien sezz gonna drop miie to comb.
an i tink he might.
i m alright with it.
juz hope i no need drop a.maths too.
hahas. of course, if can i both also dunn wann drop lo.
wateva, i nt gonna tink abt this now.

sorry gli an jl an all those who went bball t'dae.
i lazy, tired an no mood plae t'dae.
some other daes la kkayys??
hahas.

swimmin with e girls on tues.
most probably lap swimming wth teng.
hopiin to gt miie stamina back an to jian fei. =DD
hahas.

to ven an ky,
really, dunn give up.
is lik distant comfirm wil de.
bt i believe in all our hearts we do care abt e class, e memories and e ppl.
isnt dat already worth someting fer us to hold on to??
lettin go doesnt mean fergttin e memories, e class, an e ppl.
soo cheer up horrh u 2.

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
lyrics fr jay chou 回到过去.
nice lyrics.
describe how i feel.=]

dats all fer now i guess.

2008-10-31T20:14:00.004+08:00

Can I Have This Dance
HSM3- duet by Troy and Gabriella
[lyrics at bottom of e page. scroll down.]

[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

[Troy, Gabriella]
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you threw it all

[Troy, Gabriella]
And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Gabriella And Troy]
Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

bascially, i m in love wth this song an e lyrics.
sad ting is i cant put blogg song in miie blogg.
soo interested de jux click on video above. hahas.
watch HSM3 as a class outiin.
2e class outiin.
e usuals turn up.
lazy update abt it.
bt hsm3 is nice. especially this song.
find it meaningful an nice.
more tmrrow.
toodles.

2008-10-30T23:13:00.004+08:00

i jux promise to stop emo-in an i finally gt over it.
an here comes e other one.
i m really startin to question myself an doubt myself an e decisions i make too.
m i really such a person??
den wat a failure i m.
i m sorry. sorry fer wateva i did dat seemed to offend u an turns our frenship to a taste dat feel soo sour.
wat more can i really sezz??
wat do i really wanna sezz??
i dunn even understand an kw myself anymore.
why did tings turn out this wae??
we used to be close ain't we??
wat happen an can someone gave miie an ans??
soo many questions, so little ans.
i m scared dat its all restartin an happening again.
u kw wats e scariest ting in e world?
when u r sad an down, no tears r able to fall fr ur eyes even thou ur vision is a blurr.
an dat is exactly wat is happenin.
to miie.
i m scared an alone.
e tings u said, hurts miie even thou i m tryiin to deny it.
dat it doesnt hurt an wouldnt hurt.
i promise myself before dat i not gonna shed another tear fer this kind of ting anymore.
an i promise myself dat it will not happen again cause i m nv gonna trust anyone dat deeply anymore.
bt now, its lik happeniin again.
an all because i learn to trust once more.
e pain i feel when e cut was across me dull in comparison with how i feel inside.
e cut make miie realise how well it makes miie feel again.
jux a small touch.
no mess or wateva an it doesnt evn leave much of a mark bt e pain is stil dere.
bt e small cut i made make miie woke up to reality.
i m soo confused right now.
i felt good yesterdae an at a lost t'dae.
i was angry at u, angry at myself.
i wish things could be as simple as den.
why cant i do anyting perfectly??
Define perfect.

2008-10-25T21:23:00.000+08:00

holed up at hm t'dae.
lost in e world of bks.
jux gt jay album fr miie cousin.
finally.
now gd mood while listenin to his songs.
he nv fail to cheer miie up or make miie shed tears wth his emo songs.
emo-ness fadiin awae abit.
it feel soo gd to be able to slack.
sorry to devils.
ps u all t'dae.
i lazy an tired go out.
wz, soo sorry kkayys??

i prefer keepiin tings to myself too.
wil write abit abt how i feel on blogg.
bt i dunn really tel anyone how i really feel an tink.
soo i dunn really kw how to write on this blogg.
hahas.
soo does dat ans ur question as to why i cant write lengthy post?
hahas. no patience too.
an i easily drift off do other things de la.
soo wil fergt wat i wanna update.

by immersing myself into e bks,
i manage to fergt everyting fer now.
isn't dat a gd ting?
it is to miie.
to be able to temporarily run awae fr reality.
i giving myself 2 months to make a decision.
after dat, no matter wat, its a new beginning an fresh start fer miie.
i wil jux accept an continue with miie life lik nothiin happen.
til after 'o's den c how ba.
fer now, i m wkiin hard to be back lik last time in miie studies.
wkiin hard towards miie goal.
i shall stop emo-iin fr t'dae onwards an wk towards gettiin gd results.
to end it, i love sam fr mi lu bing[more den u lo, ky].
an i love jay [of course].
its cause of them dat i love drums. =DD

2008-10-24T20:17:00.002+08:00

firstly, i nt happy la.
i only happy dat dae..
hahas.
soo dunn cal miie happy girl le.
cause i m really nt. =]
currently mood abit low le.
cause stress out abt e chem SPA.
an abit emo over another ting..

to ah si:
sorry arrh.
i kw it as kinda too much an dat u cant ans why question.
bt i have to help u clear up.
alot of tings i juz cannt tel u face to face too.
dunn kw why.
tink i will write letter to u again.
sorry if i force u sezz anyting alright?
i love ya kkayys??
jian chi xia qu.
be strong.
i will be dere lik i promise. =DD

2008-10-21T11:24:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was at first an emo dae fer miie.
early morning quarrel with mum.
cause she sezz i keep go out blah blah.
an jux because i ask can go pool anot.
oh well, went out of hse go watch butterfly lovers with evan an hui.
it was funny in front, touchiin at back.
e plot is gd. thou some parts abit computerised effect la.
erm.. cried?? abit?? cause emo ma.
den hui make those sob sob sound end up make miie an evan laugh instead.
hahas.
den miie an evan was lik: hui! u soo leng la. aiyo, spoil our mood! hahas.
bt overall e show really quite nice.
went cousin hse after dat.
den eat at their hse.
watch speed racer at their hse too.
hahas.
i m happy now. hahas.
change of mood le. heehees. =DD

nice song which i found on ven's blog.

ONE IN THIS WORLD
I've been searching for
A heart that needs a heart like mine
I've been reaching for
A hand that understands
I've been waiting for
Someone that I can love that loves me
Loves me for the one that I am

Someone to hold me when I'm lonely
Someone to keep the rain away

(Chorus)
One in this world for everyone
One Heart
One soul to walk beside you
One in this life to share you're love
One touch
To touch the heart inside you

Wanna reach for each night
Wanna trust with you're life
Thats what I believe (I believe)
You're the one (You're the one)
You're the one in this world for me

I've been praying that
Someone like you would rescue me
I've been hoping that
I'd find my way to you
I've been dreaming that
Somehow I'd finally find somebody
Somebody to make my dreams come true

Someone to hold me when I'm lonely
Someone to give my whole world to

(Chorus)
One in this world for everyone
One Heart
One soul to walk beside you
One in this life to share you're love
One touch
To touch the heart inside you

Wanna reach for each night
Wanna trust with you're life
Thats what I believe (I believe)
You're the one (You're the one)
You're the one in this world for me

Someone to hold me when I'm lonely
Someone to tell my secrets to
Someone who's living for me only
Someone to give my whole world to

They say they say
They say they say

(Chorus)
One in this world for everyone
One Heart
One soul to walk beside you
One in this life to share you're love
One touch
To touch the heart inside you

Wanna reach for each night
Wanna trust with you're life
Thats what I believe (I believe)
You're the one
You're the one in this world for me

You're the one
You're the one in this world for me
You're the one

2008-10-17T20:26:00.001+08:00

woots.
early realease fr sch t'dae.
cause sch did well in 'o's.
isnt dat soo cool??
hahas.
went swimming with e girls.
at sengkang e newly-opened swimming pool.
swam laps wth teng.
didnt plae e slides.
NG YEE TENG, thnx fer makiin miie train soo hard wth u man.
i finally realise how much miie stamina deproved.
wahahas.
anywae soo tiring lo.
hahas. miie whole body aching le.
i miss swimming.
e effort of pushiin myself hard an nt givin up could only be found in miie when i m swimming.

i kw miie year-end results le.
guess wat, i m being promoted.
woots. i damn happy over it can.
at least i kw i wil have another chance to continue wk hard next yr.
realise i only fail 2 subs fer overall. L0LS.

i hate miie stupid connection.
hahas. keep make miie dc when i talkiin half wae la.
hahas.

i dunn wish to tink abt anyting except studies liiao la.
soo fan.
hahas. i shall guai guai du shu.
bt i already v.guai liiao lo. =DD

dunn kw wat to post.
hahas. except, AH SI, if u readiin this now, pls kw dat i will support ur every decisionan e dere fer u when u need miie kkayys?? same applies to WZ.
l0ls.
AH SI: u make liiao i also cannt change ur mind yea??
i will jux be ur listenin ear when u need miie.
i will nt ask if u do nt wanna sezz yea?? =DD
WZ: u nt allowed to GU fr now on alright??
an no emo-ing allowed fer u too.

i shall stop emo-ing.
since i kw i promoted liiao.
u kw wat??
i m thnxful already.
an contented fer now.
i shall now cherish every opportunity.
to study an blahh blahh.
tink ii goiin re-study fer chem to prepare fer chem SPA.
i soo scared la.
dat one buang means comb.scii liiao. =]

shall stop bloggiin here t'dae.
i in gd mood. hahas. =DD

2008-10-16T19:42:00.003+08:00

ohh shite.
blogg finish liao connection gt problem den cannt post up.
soo i now have to re-blogg.
waste miie time an effort.

你的回话凌乱着　
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽　
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯　
我还爱你呢而断断续续唱着歌　
假装没事了
时间过了　走了　爱情面临选择你冷了　倦了　我哭了
一开始的不快乐　
你用卡片手写着有些爱只给到这真的懂了怎么了　
你累了　说好的　幸福呢
我懂得　不说了　爱淡了　
梦远了开心与不开心　一一细数着　你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻　
我都还记得你不等了　说好的　
幸福呢我错了　
泪干了　
放手了　
后悔了
只是回忆的八音盒还旋转着　
要怎么停呢

this is nt e full version. nt sure accurate or nt.
bt i love this song.
i go refind tmrrow.

gt back results t'dae.
4 pass 4 fail.
oh well, i start too late liiao le la.
cannt in time fer eoy.
bt now i already start prepare next yr de liiao.
revising past e wk again.
hope can do well.

on e bus ride hm, tears welled up in miie eyes an threatened to roll down.
i silently scolded myself fer being soo weak.
i kw it will nt be easy..
bt i wanted to let go.
its best if we let go right??
i rather be e one to sink between u an miie.
bt i m in a
dilemma
now.
can someone hold miie hand an lead miie out of e darkness i had walk into??
even thou i m lik laughiin soo much these daes, deep down m currently emo-iin.
among u all, surrounded by all of u, i had no choice bt to try an be happy.
gettiin back those dreadful results nt make miie immune to it.
haviin no expression doesnt mean i m nt hurtiin inside.
i m jux bleediin in miie heart.
i was numb to e pain.
i was really v.sad this morning.
jux decided nt to show it.

no mood blogg le.
tmrrow den blogg more..

2008-10-15T19:34:00.000+08:00

back fr orchard.
we alighted at dhobby ghaut an walk to far east.
an miie in miie high heels.
after collectiin we carried e cardigans all e wae back to e printiin shop.
on our two legs.
due to finanical crises, we forgo taking cab.
wahahas. an u kw wat, e printiin shop guy is funny de lo.
soo scary can.
hahas.
he lik some... oh well, lost fer words to describe him.
hahas. as usual only us went.
miie wenzi khaiyin denyse.
everyone shuld thnx us fer our efforts man.
hahas. we soo gd go collect. heehees. =DD

jay album is out t'dae.
miie cousin busy soo she collectiin tmrrow.
hahas. cant wait.
shall blog abt one song lyric fr his album tmrrow.
haahaas.

sch starts tmrrow.
can i sezz i hate it??
i shall kw miie stupid an dreadful results tmrrow.
i m scared an i dread it.
soo wat de la.
i kw i didnt wk hard enough in time fer it.
sigh.

i shall stop emo-ing.
wenzi, u too!!
u muz jiayouus kkayys??

e thot of giviin up is on miie mind...

2008-10-14T12:21:00.002+08:00

staein at hm til 6 plus t'dae.
den father treatiin miie family plus mie cousin an her mum to seafood.
at serangoon jumbo. woots.
findiin crab. hahas. wiish miie happy eatiin ppl.
an dunn jealous. =DD

goiin out wth some devils tmrrow.
goin collect cardigans send fer printin.
hahas. tink we makiin some tings too.
lets hope e dance jacket can quickly finish doiin before our seniors go fer their 'o's.

count down to jay new album.
woots.
all e emo songs in his new album r really nice.
gt a few listen liiao i wanna cry.
soo silly of me.
bt his songs touches miie. =DD

i m jux goiin to continue walkiin on.
nt goiin to do anyting.
shall let fate decide fer miie now.

here's another song lyric.

S Club 7
Say Goodbye lyrics

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

[chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner no regrets
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the
World i'd make this last

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every day
So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies

IF I LET U GO
by westlife

day after day
time pass away
and I just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but i can't find

the courage to show
to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
and once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

night after night
I hear myself say
why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you
you speak to my heart
it's such a shame
we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
but sooner or later I've gotta choose
and once again
I'm thinkin' about
taking the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never knowwhat my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go
if I let you go, oh babyoo

oh once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out
but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me (close to me)
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah

how will I know
if I let you go
but if I let you go
I will never know(oh baby)
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
How will I know(how will i know)
if I let you go

stil gt alot of nice eng songs lyrics bt i lazy put up le.
hahas. soo nice right??

i went jay official website.
www.jay2u.com
soo cool. hahas.
i love another new song of his.
oh well, after 'o's i goiin wth miie cousin to his shop in taiwan.
hahas. goiin to travel around taiwan an hk.
ii crazy over jay now. woots!

blog to here fer now.
blogg tmrrow abt e outiin. =DD

2008-10-13T21:13:00.002+08:00

CRUSH by David Archuleta

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush'
Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

another nice song lyric.
can relate to it again.
an i believe many of u out dere can to.

衝動 - 蕭亞軒
曲︰黎沸揮
詞︰葛大為／黎沸揮

很感激　這城市擁擠的交通
讓你我　還能多相處幾分鐘
人潮中　怕失散所以輕輕拉你的手
一刻不放鬆　不放鬆

＊忍不住　想要愛你的衝動
不確定你屬於我　會有點寂寞
你給的幸福　在我心中自由走動
撫平我每一個傷口

＃忍不住　想要吻你的衝動
不確定我的執著　能讓你感動
我只相信　自己感受不怕失落
關於你的一切　我想要比誰都懂

我的心　是被你設定的鬧鐘
提醒我　想你的時間不夠用
為什麼　平淡的事情現在突然生動
是你改變我　你改變我

重唱　＊,＃

你是情人　還是朋友
還沒勇氣　想得太多
你的世界　如此遼闊
我會在哪個角落

重唱　＊,＃

another nice song lyric.
hahas.
in love wth emo songs these daes.
an 蕭亞軒 songs really nt bad.
lyrics r all quite meaningful.
hahas.

finallyy exams r over.
FREEDOM!! [for now]

went out wth wenzi t'dae.
talk some in-depth stuffs.
we really became closer durin this eoy period.
maybe its due to night studyin and other stuffs.
hahas. went window shoppiin.
actually want to go beach walk walk an rollerblade.
rain an change plan.
we decided to go ps to walk walk instead.
den we go starbucks drink coffee, chat an we sat e mrt back hm.
long long dae.

2008-10-01T16:03:00.002+08:00

《一首歌的时间》网络假传版《女儿红》[i nt sure which song name it is. =D]
by jay chou

雨停下的天空.
灰的更加老旧.
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手.
我晒干了承诺.
灰的更加懵懂.
就算做事做错也只是怕错过在一起走.
分开了走.是不是说没有做完的梦最痛.
你若退后.
我能承受.
在最后的出口.
在爱过哪儿才有.

能不能给我一首歌的时间.
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远.
在我的怀里.
不用太多失眠.
如果你想忘记我也能适应.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
把故事听到最后才说再见.
你送我的眼泪.
让他留在雨天.
如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷...

被淋湿的天空.
灰的更加老旧.
你说你不懂我为何在这时牵手我晒干了承诺.
灰的狠冲动就算做事做错也只是怕错过在一起走.
分开了走.是不是说没有做完的梦最痛.
你若退后.我能承受.在最后的出口.
在爱过哪儿才有.

你说我不该不该不该在这时候说了我爱你.
要怎麽证明我没有说谎的力气.
请告诉我
.而暂停算不算放弃.
我只有那一天的回忆
...rap部分.
你说过我不该.
在这时说爱你.
要怎麽证明我没有力气.
可是暂停却算不算放弃.
我说我不该不该.不该在这时才说爱你.
要怎麽证明我没有力气.
我只有一天回忆...

damn meaningful song lyrics.
this song is in jay new album.
i fell in love wth this song upon listening.
an i finally found a song dat can describe how i really feel now..
omg. ii love jay!! =DD
pls support him bt buyiin his album.
woots!
ii pre-order mine le.
cant wait fer it to come out.
hahas. his rubic cube soo cute.
ii love his new album.
he look soo shuai an cute.
an it doesnt hurt dat he wore stars clothes. =DD

2008-09-29T23:31:00.002+08:00

sleepy dae fer miie.
cant concentrate much.
tinkiin someting den abit emo no mood t'dae to do niite studyiin.
wenzi an ah si[evan] sezz its a miracle.
since its alwaes miie who iis pushiin them to wk hard nowadaes.
ii m emotionally tired.
nv once have ii wk hard[or it had beeb a long time since i wk hard] an now, all of a sudden ii m tryiin to push myself.
m scared of chem lessons.
kind of.
cause its lik i m scared i cant ans his question.
den i will feel lik let him down.
sigh. really no mood t'dae.
an i already promise no emoiin or watsoeva.
ii shall go back to e time when i dunn feel this wae.
back when ii m carefree, bo chap an innocent.
ii wish to bt ii cant.
its abt time i face up to reality.
jux let miie dream awhile longer kkayys ppl??
ii will wake up when ii tink its time.
fer now, ii feel lik i m sleepwalkiin thru miie life..
maybe ii really m.

when i m awake,
i kw i wil no longer be e old miie.
i shall be more sensible an dunn let e ppl around miie down.
ii will focus on miie studies.
at leat til eoy before ii let myself go an slp again.

sorry ppl.
quite a long post an kinda crappy.
its goiin to be eoy soon soo ii would nt be updatiin le.
soo tata til den. =DD

ii will nt be emo anymore.
tryin.

2008-09-27T22:00:00.002+08:00

went mac study t'dae.
weird atmosphere in e beginning.
hahas.
den meet gin an went tution.
super tired.
decided on someting dat make miie feel damn emo.
bt nt goiin to cry.
fer dat, ii promise myself ii m nt allowed to.
dunn bother askiin miie if u dunn kw.
hahas. cause ii m nt goiin to sezz.
ii nt goiin to let miie mood affect miie studies.
nt worth. an ii dunn wiish to be kana retain an be e oldest girl dere.
no thnx. hahas.
if same class as miie juniors will be soo super ps can.
m workiin really hard.
hope its nt too late.
JIAYOUUS TO MIIE! WOOTS!

thnx fer those who been dere fer miie an listenin to miie.
sorry fer lettiin u guys down.
bt i m stil gonna do it.
ii have decided.

ii have decided to really give up..
emoiin abit. bt dunn worry. =D
CAUSE I M STRONG. =]

2008-09-26T22:31:00.004+08:00

here to blogg again.
been staein in sch fer night study to do self revision these daes.
actually, shuld be been staein in sch to study these daes an niite study these two daes wth evan yesterdae and wenzi an evan t'dae.
i m soo tired an sick of studyin.
hahas.
can i live in a world where there is no trouble an nothing fer miie to study an worry abt??
i guess nt.
hahas. soo i jux have to wk hard fer another 2 wks lik dat ba. l0ls.
den free time an pool fer miie! woots!
hahas. i shall continue to wk hard til den.

JIAYOUUS EVERYONE for EOY!!

ii decided to give up. bt they sezz nt to. m confused bt dunn really wanna tink abt it anymore.
jux wanna concentrate on studies fer now... i m jux tired. maybe its time i let go..

2008-09-19T23:08:00.002+08:00

life is never a bed of roses.

gt ups gt downs.

though mostly more downs den ups lorrh.

ii jux dunn kw how to express myself anymore.

dunn wiish to burden anyone.

i seemed to drift.. awae fr everyone.

disconnected fr this place.

like ii sezz before, miie body mightbe dere bt in spirit, it seems lik ii m lookiin in instead of joiinin in.

tings do change.

its obvious.

kinda pissed at someone this daes.

i hate it when ppl sezz things behind miie back.

i do rather they jux sezz straight to miie face.

ii cant stand being backstab, one wae or another.

things r weird between miie an dat someone.

in a wae we lik keepiin tings fr one another; our thoughts an feelings of wat we feel about our friendships an us now.

ii jux wiish to sezz sorry.

fer nt being a better fren to u soo u wouldnt even sezz this of miie.

if fate have it u will c this post of mine.

update tmrrow.

mum angry le...

2008-09-15T20:02:00.007+08:00

miie an sixian at e recent public performance at NLB. =DD

miie with miie latte. =]

celebratiin miie cousin's birthdae.
an ii kw ii look weird. HAHAS.

rose juliet latte fr TCC.
this drink rawk miie world.

love iit. =DD

miie an teng.
when we went to town duriin hols.

miie an hui.

when we went kukupt trip on 020908.

sorry ppl.

ii lazy blogg.

soo jux upload soo piics.

now goiin study.

note to everyone: miie blogg is a wae of lettiin all miie emo-ness flow out of miie.

it doesnt mean anyting kkayys.

thnx fer concern.

an horrh, miie last post iis jux some random post.

more later.. =DD

2008-09-09T22:26:00.002+08:00

i lazy update long long wann.
shall leave it fer e weekends when i m free.
hols ended an sch started.
being bombarded with tests an research fer debate an blah blah.
soo m really busy.
YAY. gettiin back miie phone tmrrow.
den can finally hear e songs ii miiss an upload photos.
finally.
encounteriin all sorts of love an readin twilight series.
it make miie realise how precious love is.
in a wae, when someone is to giveup on loving someone, i guess it is indeed painful an undescrible.
an those who continue to love e person is really great indeed.
is lik kwiin e person dunn lik or love u back felt lik a knife being stab into ur heart.
an even then e pain of kwiin or e emotional pain is more den e physical pain when e knife stabs into ur heart.
an those who put in alot of effort bt dunn gt anyting in return shuld juz let go an move on.
bt is those who put in effort an dunn mind juz mo mo shou huo nt expectin anyting fr e person dat make miie really touched.
dat is wat love is about u kw.
seein e love bella an edward have for one another touches miee.
unconditional love.
its great.
an those who r in love r oblivious to everyting around them.
living in their own world, life's a bed of roses fer them.
angry or low wouldnt last fer long.
wish dat it would last den no??
or dat time would juz stops.
bt time goes on with no mercy.
an its sweet while it last.
i wish gt such love lik between bella an edward.
a lifetime load of love.

i kw its random.
bt jux feel lik pennin it down. =DD

2008-09-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

THANKS NG YEE TENG FER HELPIIN MIIE MAKE BLOGSKIN!!
more updates later..

2008-08-25T22:34:00.003+08:00

nv go sch t'dae.
cause t'dae morning, or yesterdae night had a big quarrel wth parents.
cried lik siiao. and screamed alot too ii guess.
t'dae morning eyes swollen til cant open.
plus nt feeliin well soo...
slpt til late. abt 11 den wake.
lik a robot. nothiin to do at hm.
ii admit, ii m lik a running tap tiis daes..
e floodgates open easily and ii cant control nor stop iit.
very emotional. hahas.
den late evening t'dae talk wth mum.
cry again.
bt at least manage to talk out our feelings an sort tings out wth her.
soo its gd an worth it.
an evan cal at wrong time.
ii cant talk den.
cal her back afterwards and talk fer 1 hr.
revise chem den here ii m bloggin.
kw some of miie results le.
in a wae ii kw ii will fail miie chem an physic.
bt its gd dat ii improve.
ii m tryiin to be positive now.
realise too stress ii cant do well.
its those subs ii relax de den did better.
ii m goiin work hard fer e next few wks till eoy.
jiayouus to miie!! =DD

ii love this song alot.
it describe how ii feel these daes.
especially e last paragraph.

STRANDED BY AMY PEARSON
(Verse 1)
So my heart has been ship wrecked again
and i try to swim to dry land
to reach the shore,
it's a desert island and i wright help,
in the sand as large as i can,
that you ignore,
so im waving at air planes,
waiting for ships to come take me away,

(pre chorus)
when i noticed the tidesure is coming in fast,
and i guess that this songreally could be my last,

(chorus)
i feel like im stranded here with,
no-one to rescue me
abanded by everyone i need,
i feel like you played me,
i feel like im such a fool,
left stranded here by you, oh

(verse 2)
so the quick sand is pulling me down,
you could throw that rope,
and could save me from despair,
i was cast away you let me drown,
so i tried to scream but i bet
no-one would hear,

(pre chorus)
put a messege in a bottle
that you'll never read,
so this is the last song
that you'll get from me,

(chorus)
i feel like im stranded here with,
no-one to rescue me
abanded by everyone i need,
i feel like you played me,
i feel like im such a fool,
left stranded here by you, oh oh oh

(verse 3)
so im waving at air planes,
waiting for ships to come take me away,

(pre chorus)
when i noticed the tidesure is coming in fast,
and i guess that this song,
im scared that this song,
really could be my last,

(chorus)
i feel like im stranded here with,
no-one to rescue me
abanded by everyone i need,
i feel like you played me,
i feel like im such a fool,
i feel like im stranded here with,
no-one to rescue me
abanded by everyone i need,
stuck between 2 worlds,
what should i do,
im stranded by you

this song iis really damn nice to miie.

its on miie blog if u wanna listen.

2008-08-24T17:02:00.002+08:00

wat iis happenin to miie??
is lik even thou i m surrounded by soo many ppl bt i jux feel soo alone.
u kw, i use to fear being alone, unwanted and lonely, lik i m nt worth anyting at all in e eyes of those around miie.
an now, this fear of mine is comin true.
an dere is nothing i can do to stop it.
i m lik walkin awae fr ppl who are miie frens.
i dont kw how it happen and why it happen.
i jux.. i jux dunn kw wat m i doiin in this world.
i m gettin use to beinng alone.
an wats worst iis, i find being alone being confortiin.
no one ii have to ans to as to why m ii being emo.
ii hate it when ppl sezz ii emo.
to miie gt diff between low an emo.
when low jux dunn feel lik talkiin.
emo iis wanna cry.
was low yesterdae.
cause abit pissed too.
mood no gd.
maybe cause exams or someting??
bt ii seem to be more guai an low.
hahas. bt m okayy now.
an exams make miie stop eatiin.
in e sense no mood eat an have been skippin lunch fer last wk.
miie mum sezz ii lose alot of weight.
i tink stil okayy la. since ii m fat. =]
tmrrow doom dae.
i kw ii fail miie chem.
somemore tink ii single gigit.
ii pray hard dat at least gt double digit.
shall stop bloggin here.
gd luck to miie class in gettin back results.
jiiayouus. whoohoo. =DD

2008-08-08T23:36:00.003+08:00

080808.
Olympics opening and national dae eve.
cool man.
actually wanna blogg at 8.
bt ii still at kovan eatiin.

t'dae went back sch to celebrate national dae eve.
an iis NC talent Quest.
first time CD dunn need perform on national dae.
bt ii rather perform.
its soo damn bored most of e time.
mr tay our vice principal sang his own song.
soo damn cool riite??
an ms betsy teo sang jay song.
OMG. she RAWKS!! =DD
PK between CD juniors and ID juniors.
tense atmosphere.an we won.
whoohoo!!
well done to both bt CD juniors u r e best.
ii L0VE miie daughters!! =]

went dance and we finally hear e endiin of e song.
wow. round of applause fer us pls. =]
congrats to those who went fer dance t'dae.

rush hm after dance.
cause late lik siia0 liia0.
iis lik 2 meet ii 2 stil eatiin lunch.
gd ting iis, its only at kovan soo ii can walk quite fast dere.
reach bowliin dere only saw jh an dallas.
use their phones call e girls.
cause miie phone siia0 tiis daes, soo sad la.
tink ii have to downgrade.
which ii dunn wann.
anywae evan cal an we were lik opp one another only.
alot of ppl t'dae.
book both pool an bowliin.
ii went plae pool le den go down bowl.
den went up plae pool til 7.30.
been plaein pool fer 3 consecutive weeks.
an ii still love plaeing it.

ii gt six gutter in a row fer bowling.
damn cool right??
hand pain t'dae cannt plae well.
post piic in next post.
pool quite siian at first t'dae bt after bowling come up plae damn fun again.
more tmrrow. iif ii can.
cause quite busy wth alot of tings tiis few daes of hols.
lik t'dae go out.
tmrrow tution pls gathering at aunty2 hse.
sun goiin bugis wth mum siis sharon cousin and her mum.
mon going cousin hse.
busy right??
tired now going slp.
niites sweet dreams.

HAPPY 43th BIRTHDAE SINGAPORE!!

2008-08-04T18:33:00.003+08:00

bloggiin again.
wat to sezz, ii m quite addicted to usiin com an blogg this daes.
hmm. super tired this daes.
ii m soo scared of nt doiin well in studies this daes.
especially chem.
cause ii alwaes been lousy in all miie sciences.
sigh. super tired this daes.
lik need to slp alot lik dat. L0LS.
went to yoshi eat t'dae.
an celebrate hui belated birthdae dere by buying small cake and singing birthdae song to her.
she didnt finish thou.
tink its nt as nice??
oh well, its e thot dat counts.
den miie and evan went to shop around cp.
finally found a suitable ting to buy.
hahas. den went hm an slack.
ii finally sat down and watch tv t'dae.
wow nia. long time nv do dat.
goiin to watch ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni and lan qui huo when ii have time.
now jux going to concentrate on studying.
sigh. ii need to work harder den others in other to do as well as them in chem.
oh well, ii hope miie hard work does pay off.
heehees.
shall stop here. goiing to go study chem fer tmrrow verbal test.
hope ii pass no need write lines. =DD

2008-08-03T13:48:00.003+08:00

devils with mummy.
ii miiss her soo much. cant believe she wil be flyiin to taiwan soon.
an iit will be a long time before we can c her.
oh well, ii jux have to cherish and treasure e tings ii have now.
its only when we r abt to lost someting den we will cherish iit.
from now on, ii goiing to treasure everyting and every person around miie.
its those tings and people who make miie life soo great.

went cp buy present fer miie cousin t'dae.
hope she likes iit.
its very pretty bt ii shant say wat iis iit here.
hahas. before dat morniin went meet devils to do someting.
as usual, only e normal gang turn up.
miie, wenzi, ky, denyse, yanhan.
an ii was late by 1 and a half hr.
suppose to meet at 10 ii 9 woke up.
ky cal to ask iif ii goiin [ which ii m ] an after hangiin up ii went back to slp til 10.
an ii rush an rush. l0ls.
we do iin library den later went to have lunch at kopitiam.
an downstairs gt small little children plaeiin musical instruments.
an gt a small boy plae violin.
omg. he soo cute and shuai.
ii find guys plae instruments very shuai. wahahas.
especially violin, piano and drums.
soo damn cool.
den later meet gin who came up to find miie.
we went tution together and was late.
l0ls. gli was nt happy.
sorry gli. =]
and den ii went down cp meet miie mum an siis.
went hm later after buyiin.
yesterdae was quite a crazy dae.

an t'dae, ii m rottiin at hm.
no mood do hm wk.
keep slack and read bks.
an now, finall on com to blogg an blahh.
alright. shall stop here. =DD

2008-08-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

okayy. ii m touched by e taggs.
an its jux miie own thots and feelings.
ii dunn like to tie ppl down wth iit bt ii need to gt iit all off miie before ii erupt.
hahas. anywae cheer up already.
maybe cause next wk no tests!! whooHOOS!!
an maybe also cause miie an miie mum okayy liia0.

e tues issue wth mum really freak miie out.
gt tests on thurs an fri, both which are killer subjects and stil have major argument wth mum over some small matter.
cold war an when ii apologise later, she refuse miie apology.
which make miie damn PO cause ii sick an stress stil lik dat.
next dae too sick go sch.
major headache.
den talk to mum she still bo chap miie.
ii jux lik to vent out miie anger at one go den forget abt iit.
ii cant stand keeping miie anger in or staying angry for long.
den anywae ii soo angry til run out of house without telling her where ii went.
ii jux took a.maths stuffs and went joelyn hse to study.
iif nt ii cant concentrate nia.
an ii manage to sit dere for 3 hrs jux studying and doing maths wth joe.
soo damn miracle right??
ii went back hm and she okayy le.
guess everyone jux need to be angry for a period of time and things will be okayy.
everyone jux need their own spaces and their period of time taken to forgive ppl iis different too.

ii dunn kw.
ii jux lik to go straight to e point when talkiin.
unless its abt sensitive matters that need to be deal with carefully iif nt will hurt ppl.
other den dat ii dunn c any point in beatin abt e bush.
anywae dats who ii m la soo accept or leave iit.
this is jux some random thot.
hahas. soo its nothiin much.

an those who kw wat ii m talkin abt in previous posts and tagged miie taggboard,
thnx.
ii really appreciate iit.
jux wanna sezz abig thnxs to u guys.
u all have given miie some answers and ii really hope its true and fr e bottom of u guys' harts.
iif nt, ii really wiish u all nv sezz iit in e first place.
bt ii believe u guys.
hmm. bt why ii still dunn feel dat wae arrh??
ky, ii m really okayy abt iit. dunn worry. hahas. =]

goiin off now. lazy continue to blog le.
an iits goiin abt 1am anywae.
niites sweet dreams ppl.
ii kw u all in lala land liia0. an ii m off to miie. =]

2008-07-25T23:49:00.002+08:00

what is happening to me??
ii seem to cant understand myself at all now.
emo-ness keep resurfacing every possible chance and whenever ii m not doing something.
ii just cant stand it anymore.
pressure of sch, emo-ing is like kinda driving me crazy.

u kw, ii m really trying my best.
but its hard to smile and be high when u r not. especially when feeling low.
ii just cant smile and let it go. ii need to let these emotions flow out of me.
ii m just a phone call away even though ii cant sms to u.
ii kw its hard to talk about our feelings like that but u could write to me instead.
u kw ii would always be there to listen and write back.
it hurts, it really hurts.
ii kw e ones we r missing r not 2e but e memories we had together.
an ii kw that what really hurts me is not 2e not being together but every single friendship ii have with each individual which ii cherish alot and which ii find it fragile and which would break easily lik a pair of butterfly wings.
i thought it hard and long and i realise that.
who can define real friendships??
ii have tried my best bt ii guess its jux not enough.
ii m sorry.

to someone. u kw who u r.
what can ii sezz except that ii m very very sorry.
my mood iis jux nt gd t'dae and ii dunn wiish for that to affect u all.
morever, ii gt no mood to stae in dance t'dae.
ii kw u would sezz its a form of prioritizing.
an ii agree with dat.
bt really sorry, ii really really no mood t'dae.
its not because of whos goiing an wat.
its just that ii m feeling too tired and emo.
its okayy, u didnt hurt miie.
wat u said r just plain facts.
an thats e reason why ii apologize.
an its not that ii dunn wiish to help.
its jux that ii tink u all there r enough.
miie dance soo lan ii scared later teach wrong.
somemore dunn kw wat cher teach e juniors.
sometimes[most of e times], ii really wondered why ii became vice chair.
ii really tink that ky shuld be.
can someone come and give miie an ans??
ii really need iit...

2008-07-21T22:39:00.003+08:00

"tHe sMiles tHat ii oNce ownEd iN ME aRe nOw gOne, REPLACED by AN aching HEART."

okayy. to continue fr where ii stop.
anywae, really very sad and emo.
its lik ii m soo used to listening to others dat ii have forgotten how to listen to myself.
ii kw how to try and make others feel better bt ii cant seem to apply iit to myself.
and say e truth, how many of u out there really kw when ii m emo and sad??
ii guess it's none..
sadness in miie iis covered by a smile on my face.
even when ii m sad ii try hard to hide iit.
ii dont wiish for others to c this weakness of mine nor let others around me feel down.
ii cried t'dae.
sadness just overcome me and there is nothing that ii can do to stop these tears from flowing down my cheeks.
ii hidden myself away so no one can c that ii m truly dat sadden.
this iis nt a emo compo.
its really how ii felt.
ii m torn in between.
to the past and to the present.
ii feel that ii should let go of e past.
r we being too selfish as to hold on to the past; refusing to let go of e hands we r holding which r binded to us by 2e 07' unbreakable bonds??
ii feel like ii had been real selfish.
wiishing to hold on to the past while at the same time moving on.
which resulted in me dragging too many people behind me.
ii wiish someone can tell me what to do..
ii tink its about time we all started to move on.
half a yr had past bt most of us had still hold onto dat dream.
e dream that nothing would change between us no matter what.
fact iis, time move on with or without us and changes are a part of reality.
even then, letting go of e past doesnt mean giving up on the friendships.
friendships are the real bonds that bind us together.
remember this.
lets all give our new classes a chance before we decide on anyting.
we never kw wat might happen.
jux lik wat happen when we gave one another a chance during 1e 06'.

2008-07-21T19:57:00.002+08:00

okayy. more piics e next time ii post.

no mood transfer e files over fr phone to com.

sigh. really feeliing depressed and emo now.

firstly, my tests.

chem ii gt feeliing ii m failing.

in which ii have to drop to comb. scii iif really cannt make iit.

failed miie a.maths test by 3 marks.

iis like ii study soo hard gt tiis kind of results really make miie feel like giving up on studies totally.

oh well, goiin to try to wk even harder.

its okayy..

second, went someone's blogg an saw emo tings.

wat can ii sezz??

friendship iis really unpredictable.

ii really did try. believe miie.

maybe wat ii tried to do jux isnt enough.

ii no mood go down eat. or too busy sometimes.

maybe its time we let go of e past.

maybe den ppl, we can finally enjoy tiis beautiful and precious friendship we have.

when our hopes gt too high, we fall down harder.

when we let go of e past, and look forward to e future, we would be able to keep e friendship.

its nt giving up on this friendship, bt learning to compromise.

lets just say ii would try my best alright??

third, friendship.

it gts soo complicated nowadaes.

ii cant seem to understand wat some ppl r thinking nowadaes.

it seems lik ii dunn seem to be part of devils anymore.

ii no longer gt anyting.

an ii jux seemed to be a stranger to them now.

ii kw they will sezz its nt.

bt tings really lik did change.

sigh. its jux miie own opinion.

2008-07-20T19:40:00.004+08:00

been a crazy week.

tests, tests and more tests.

sigh. tink ii m failing my chem already.

work soo hard still cannt do.

soo demoralising lorrh.

tink ii shuld jux drop to comb.

bt till e last chance, ii wouldnt give up!! =D

fri went to plae tennis at joelyn hse with jielin, yeeteng, glinnis and of course joelyn.

quite fun. an soo tiring.

we played tennis, squash and badminton.

ran around the court too.

den we meet e guys at cup walker there to head down to kovan to bowl.

went down wth raymond, royal and dallas.

reach kovan chuan yan was already dere waiting for us.

soo early nia. hahas.

went bowling alley bt they got competiton.

soo end up cannt plae.

went my hse to play bball instead.
its abt 10 to 20 mins walk to miie hse depending on how fast u walk.
an they walk quite slow soo as when ii told them 10 mins and it past already bt haven reach, they keep ask miie.
L0LS. stop at e garden there e playground play awhile.
finally reach e basketball court and my mum took e ball down.
wahahas. ii nv gt to plae yet cause went to fetch jian hsien and chnia ghee who cant find e bus stop.
went lik 2 times before they reached.
we started to grp into 2 teams and e guys r lik damn hieong.
hahas. first time c. quite fun actually.
lots of funny tings happen.
too bad ii nv took photos of us at bball court.
at abt 6 everyone tired and mood siian liia0.
cause xe they all send msg told us chem 7 ppl failed.
ii was quite depressed cause tink ii m one of e 7..
left mii, jl, joe, gli, jh and dallas gt kovan plae pool.
called evan they all ask them come join us.
evan came and jh went to fetch her. =D
went and bk e table and had a crazy fun time.
plyed for half hr then ii went to meet my mum an siis and went back hse dere e market eat.
such a tiring day. played 5 kinds of balls. SHIOK!
tennis, squash, badminton, bball, pool.
too bad no bowling.
ii wanna play BOWLING!!
more piics in next post. =]

2008-07-13T22:49:00.002+08:00

here to do a quiz evan ask miie to do..
hahas.. soo here iit goes..

LAYER 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE
Name : regina tan
Birthdate : 070693
Current status : student
Eye colour : brown.
Hair colour(s) : black
Righty or lefty : righty
LAYER 2 : ON THE INSIDE
My heritage : singapore
Fears : scared of lizards an rubber insects.
My weaknesses : ii dunn kw?? tink u guys wil kw??
My perfect pizza : hawaiian with lots of cheesy an chillies. =]

LAYER 3 : YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My thoughts first waking up : ii wanna go back to sleep..
My bedtime : earliest 11.
My most missed memory : all e happy memories ii ever have. Especially wth 2e 07’ an devilrinas.

LAYER 4 : MY PICK
Pepsi or coke : both also dunn lik.
McDonalds or Burger king : KFC. Hahas. =D
Single or group dates : group lorrh. Bt depends.
Adidas or Nike : ADIDAS RAWK MY WORLD.
Tea or Nestea : tea bt ii prefer coffee most of e time.
Chocolate or Vanilla : CHOCS OF COURSE. ii m a chocoholic. L0Ls.
Cappuccino or Coffee : cappuccino. Bt ii prefer mocha. Hahas.

LAYER 5 : DO YOU..
Smoke : NOPE. NO WAE.
Curse : ya. When ii m angry. Hahas.
Take a shower : of course la. Who don’t??
Have a crush : erm. ii shant ans tiis question. Cause its fer miie to kw an fer u to find out. Wahahas.
Think you have been in love : nope.
Go to school : ah bu den?? Of course lorrh.
Want to get married : ask miie 10 yrs later..
Believe in yourself : depend on wat. Hahas.
Think your a health freak : quite?? Ii love vegs an fruits?? Especially apples. =]

LAYER 6 : IN THE PAST
Drank alcohol : yepp. Bt ii gt drunk easily soon dunn dare touch iit le.
Gone to the mall : of course la. ii love shoppiin!! Whee!! =]
Been on stage : ah duh. Hahas. ii m fr performin arts grp.
Eaten sushi : yayaya.
Dyed your hair : no. like miie hair colour. Bt planniin to highlight when ii can.

LAYER 7 : HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game : NOPE. An dunn plan to.
Changed who you were to fit in : NOPE. An ii wouldn’t.

LAYER 8 : AGE YOU ARE HOPING
To be married : 25-27
Get a job : rite after ii finish studyiin wateva ii m studyiin??

LAYER 9 : IN A GUY
Best eye colour : ii dunn kw..
Best hair colour : purple highlights. Lik jay in his concert.. brown or black hair.
Short hair or long hair : stylish wann can liia0. Show he gt taste.

LAYER 10 : WHAT WERE YOU DOING
A minute ago : blog an chattiin.
Hour ago : usiin com.
Hours ago : eatiin.
1 Month Ago : studyiin.
Year ago : also studyiin.

LAYER 11 : FINISH THE SENTENCES
I love : family. Friends. Devilirinas.
I feel : blurr. Happy.
I hate : ii dunn kw.
I hide : ??
I miss : holidays. Friends. Happy memories. 2e 07’
I need : more smiles around miie and to study harder.

LAYER 12 : TAG 3 PEOPLE
1) wenzi
2) yanhan
3) denyse

2008-07-12T22:12:00.000+08:00

lazy blogg nowadaes.
blogg iis dead.
sorry ppl.
t'dae also nt goiin to sezz much.
jux dat ii m busy soo wouldnt be bloggiin fer a long time. =]
sorry!

2008-06-20T18:14:00.011+08:00

1. WHEN WILL THE SUN NOT SHINE AND WHEN WILL THE WORLD END?
nt shine when its hidden by cloud and world end when global warmin ends.
2. WHAT YOU WANT THE MOST NOW?
hmm. electronics devices to play with lik new hp, laptop, psp an etc.
3. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE?
yea. tink soo.
4. DO YOU HATE YOUR FRIENDS SOMETIMES?
of course nt. hate iis too strong a word. =]
5. WHEN DO YOU WISH TO DIE?
eveytime ii do someting wrong or embarassing. L0LS. XD
6. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SEEING A RAINBOW AFTER THE RAIN?
yupp.
7. WHAT IMPOSSIBLE THINGS U WOULD WISH TO DO?
fly? l0ls. an score full marks fer all miie exams, tests and etc without having to study. :D
8. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ETERNITY LOVE?
yea. ii guess soo. its possible.
9. HAVE YOU BROKEN SOMEONE HEART THAT HE/SHE TRIED TO COMIT SUICIDE?
nope.
10. WHAT FEELING DO YOU LOVE MOST?
feeling which makes me feel like smiling which means ii m happy. =]
11. WHAT ARE THE REQUIREMENTS THAT YOU WISH FROM YOUR OTHER HALF?
someone who can make miie smile.
12. WHAT FEELING DO YOU HATE THE MOST?
being lonely, low and bored.
13. DO YOU CHERISH EVERY SINGLE FRIENDSHIP OF YOURS?
of course. dat goes without sayin.
14. IS THERE ANYTHING YOU'RE LOOKING FORWARD TO IN THE NEXT FEW WEEKs?
miie father buyin a new laptop. an being with miie frens again. ii miiss them. XD
15. WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN YOUR LIFE?
doing well in life.
16. WHO DO YOU HOPE TO BE ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU?
miie frens, family and devilrinas.
17. DO YOU FIND LIFE MEANINGLESS?
nt no bt yes when ii m low and bored.
18. WHO DO YOU LOVE THE MOST?WHO'S THE LAST PERSON YOU SLAPPED?
love miie frens an family. ii nv slapp ppl de la.
20. IS THERE A QUOTE YOU LIVE BY?
hmm. nt dat ii can tink of..
INSTRUCTIONS: REMOVE 1 QUESTION FROM ABOVE, AND ADD IN YOUR PERSONAL QUESTION,
THEN TAG 8 PEOPLE IN YOUR LIST, LIST THEM OUT AT THE END OF THIS POST.
NOTIFY THEM IN THEIR CHATBOX THAT HE/SHE HAS BEEN TAGGED.
WHOEVER DOES THE TAG WILL HAVE A BLESSING FROM ALL
I AM GOING TO TAG
1] khai yin
2] ginette
3] jie lin
4] venessa
5] jaslyn
6] yeeteng
7] hui hui
8] evangeline

2008-06-20T18:14:00.002+08:00

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
break lorrh. Iif nt wat?? Nt despo an somemore he’s nt e only guy.

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
gt to talk to miie idol, jay chou, in person.

#3. What will your dream wedding to be like?
erm. Ask miie 10 yrs later. =]

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
of course. How ii kw wats gonna happen next to me?? L0LS.

B)
#5. What's your ideal lover like?
dark, tall and gt muscles and someone who ii can communicate with? L0LS. XD

#6. What is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone lorrh. bt ii tink both also quite blessed.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
let fate decide. :D

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
give up lurrh. Nt urs means nt urs. No use clingin to him.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
erm. Maybe?

#10. Is being tagged fun?
hmm. Its better den no one tag u rite??

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
grown up.

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
friends, devilrinas, family.

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
pretty babes, crazy and high, crappy but funny and most of all, I love them.[ ii nt les pls.] :D

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
rich and single. Can slowly find ur prince rite?? L0ls. Bt need money to survive.

#15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
go back to slp again. L0Ls.

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
nt really. iis take iit or leave iit.

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
iis dat love?? Both also dunn wann since dunn tink iis love lorrh.

#18. What type of friends do you like?
those who really wanna be frens with miie. An of course muz be able to communicate with them.

#19. What type of friends do you dislike
hmm. Dats fer mie to kw an fer u to find out.

tagged by: khai yin & yeeteng
8 lucky/unlucky ppl : xe, hui hui, ginette, venessa, angeline, hui bing, evan, jl

2008-05-31T18:57:00.002+08:00

here to revive my dead dead blogg.
hols are finally here. phew.
but, due to my lousy results, parents keep forcing me to study.
its irritatin man but oh well, its my fault for scoring dat kind of results.
first two wks of my hol iis filled up with going out, extra lessons and dance.
we finally completed 1 min of our teacher's day dance.
not bad! hahas. we took about three days? and we spent quite alot of time crapping.

looking forward to devils' outing at kallang on 6 june.
ii wanna go ice-skating! woohoo!
9 june got 2e class outing at zoo.
ven, the option zoo was on e board just because this is one of the place we could go to in singapore.
we don't plan to go zoo as we know that 2e outing would be there.
so pls don't be upset kkayys??
its really not fair for us not be able to plan any 3e outings right?
each class have their own outings but that doesn't mean we have forgotten about 2e or we no longer care about it.
we still do. soo cheer up ya?? and don't give up on 2e. =]
to ky: HAPPY BELATED LIKE SIAO BIRTHDAY!!
as requested by her as she iis jealous. L0LS.
looking forward to 2e outing too thou ii m not a big fan of zoo.
cause is a great bonding experience ii hope. L0Ls.
ii m nt sure whether ii can go or not but ii will try hard..

click's five concert iis tmrrow.
not really a big fan now as ii prefer Eric.
oh well, my siis is thou. hahas.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance to my cousin wilson and aunty.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to glinnis, perly, shannon, kelvin, angeline and hui bing. oh ya, mr quek too.
sorry for not sending birthday msgs to u all.
my sms have bao liia0.
goin to reach 1000 when ii only have 500 sms and another 500 to singtel only.
l0ls. still have a few more days to go.. 4 june den will clear everything.
so, for now sorry if unable to reply ur msg.

2008-05-13T23:16:00.003+08:00

hmm. went online jux now.
wow. found out ppl blogg an write reviews' on rockery mango tango.
and they gt take pictures all that. XD
abt e mid-yr exams..
well, think ii going to drop to comb sci le.
chem comfirm cannt pass e target of 65%.
an physic mux gt a 50%.
m scared cannt pass.
bt ii tried miie best le soo even drop to comb. scii also bo bian liia0.
eng pass or fail iis cannt help de. cause nothin to study.
a.maths test iis die liia0. e.maths still okayy.
chii hai ha0. geo also. history iis lik abit blurr.
dunn hope fer much. jux wanna do okayy in all e subjects this time.
pls dont let me drop to comb. hahas. =]

2008-05-13T22:13:00.002+08:00

okayy. kw it been long since ii last blogg.
too many tings happen bt too little time for me to pen all this events down.
bt it doesnt mean it would nt be forever in my heart an memory.
sorry that ii cannt go out tmrrow. bt ii cant help iit.
miie parents r lik dat. they sezz ii keep going out alot and they say they always let miie which they didnt.
ii m jux sick of quarrelling with them over this matter everytime ii wanna go out.
its jux dat miie parents r different fr u all.. u all e parents wouldnt complain or say, much bt mine wil.
ii dont feel gd also when ii told u all e news dat ii not goin.
iis not like ii dont want to go out wth u all.
an its nt nice to be left out jux because miie parents dont allow.
how do u all think ii feel when ii cannt go out to class outins and etc.??
iis lik ps ppl lik dat and at e same time feel very left out u kw??
soo ii m very sorry when miie parents dunn let me go. bt its nt totally miie fault.
sezz wat u all want and think wateva u all want ba..
ii cannt do anything. an ii m nt referin to anyone..
anywae ii cheer up alot abt tiis ting le. soo nt angry or anyting.. =]

2008-03-26T22:36:00.002+08:00

finally bloggiin again.
this past few weeks had been a whirlwind of emotions for me.
there had been ups and downs and good news!
ii m on e way to being back the old me. heehees.
thanx everyone who had been there for me when ii m emo, bear wth it, cheer me up and so on.
on e way back to being cheerful again!! yay!!
meldon said ii changed; alicia too.
they said ii become more cheerful an smiley. =D
nt lik last time and last yr. oh well.
hahas. actually iis quite true. Lmao.
well, mostly been emo cause of friendship and family.
never for love thou. hahas. no need to. =]
okayy. this few days very high.
sitting with hui hui, behind xe and karen, beside evan and joelyn and with some guys.
new sitting arrangement. hahas.
oh wow, those ppl near me make me so damn high everyday.
l0ls. laughing everyday. heehees.
especially t'dae. soo funny.
xe was upset over her pants. den everyone around was very concern.
including e guys. hahas.
den later she went toilet with karen and hui turn her bag around or something.
edmund and jeremy looking also. den gt stain on her bag.
they thot... dats why xe was upset. bt iis actually not.
then e two was lik soo paiseh about it.
cause ii was lik laughing and teasing them for anyhow touch a girl bag.
pissed myself laughin.
me, hui and evan was lik keep laughin.
den went toilet find them. told xe.
she laughed evern worse den me lorrh.
an ii end up laughing like siia0 again.
den xe say she too embarass to go back class liia0.
this past few daes in class had really been extremely great.
felt soo contented and blessed.
gonna remember all this happy memories fereva. =]

last sun went xe hse do e cheerleadering thing.
had a very fun day at her hse.
we keep re-watching hanazakiri, hua yang shao nian shao nu or hanakimi de jap version.
we learnt e steps fr dat show. den her mum and lil' bro was like saying that we cannot make it.
but we did it!! soo funny when saw e reaction of her mum when she heard.
some other tings happened to make us very high but ii shant say what.
stayed at her hse for dinner. ate steamboat.
nice!! den later xe wanna cycle me to cp.
ii say ii too fat cannt make iit de. later bic toppled over. l0ls.
den later say her driving skills very lan dont dare to sit.
it was a very fun and funny day to sum it up.

well, this past few weeks at dance had been real emo.
everyone was lik not feeling good and many tears had flowed.
we lost our temper, felt PO wth one another, emo an so on.
really hope that we can just voice our thoughts to one another to stop all this from happening again.
sorry to denyse. kw u felt PO wth my comments. sorry! but well, ii was joking.
wenzi, cheer up. u cannt quit dance!
yan han, dunn sad le. smile! =]
as fer ky an sx, well, they r e most happy among us de.
l0ls. they r e only 2 among us who managed to stay cheery.
oh well, sat at cp stairs dere to talk t'dae.
we 3 really wanted all this to stop an go back to normal.
wiish it could end soon.

was quite high yesterdae an talk quite alot with yt.
first time in so many months.
really glad of iit dat tings had started to get better.
ii guess time really heal the hurt and pain and the wounds inflicted by each of us.
iis lik we kinda of reach an understanding and had put e past behind us, starting afresh.
ii m seriously glad of it. glad to put e unhappy memories of the past behind and concentrating on making the happy memories of e future.

shall stop bloggin here. kinda of late le. goin to 12AM liia0.
oh ya, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FELICIA!!
niites and sweet dreams everyone. =]

2008-03-13T01:10:00.002+08:00

okayy. here to blog a fast one.
as ii m typiin tiis, time iis 1.11AM on thurs morn.
doiin miie hols wk.
well, tiis past few wks had been kinda of emo fer miie.
sorry to ppl who had to cheer miie up an bear wth miie emo-ness.
l0ls. cheered up alot t'dae. tiink mood swing la.
hahas. went physic tution wth gin t'dae.
oh wow. finally understand physic. hahas.
e cher nt bad. can understand.
as miie an gin went hougang mall to bk e cake, a very funny thing happen at e traffic light.
we were kana splashed wth dirty water by e bus driver who drive his car into a pool of dirty water right at us.
of course we were shocked. den after dat jux keep laughing about it. l0ls!
okayy. its late now. goiin to slp le. jux wanna blog a fast post. more next time. =]
niites an sweet dreams to ppl who r slpiin now.
hope ii can go e bbq tmrrow. oh well.

2008-03-01T17:53:00.002+08:00

yeterdae 29 feb.
too tired to blogg yesterdae after dance.
soo bloggiin now.
long time nv post le.
start off e dae badly yesterdae.
quite disappointed wth miie chem result.
onliie 31/50. tiink ii last in class fer chem.
hiiax. feel lik let mr tien down.
den came maths.
ii fail miie A maths.
onliie 20/50. feel lik let mdm tang down.
bt den our class 20 ppl fail 22 ppl pass.
actually iis 21 21 bt glinnis manage to gt extra marks den pass.
bt overall iis pass. jux nice 50/100.
next iis physic.
ii fail. onliie 18.5/50.
hahas. ii expected iit.
overall fail by 3 marks.
oh well. disappointed bt den.. ii dunn lik physic soo...
actually iis don't lik e cher teachiin.
cause cannt understand.
soo quite sad yesterdae.
even thou iis a 4 yr 1 time dae, ii stil cant feel happy.

here r miie overall lousy results:
eng: 57.8
chi : 66 [ ii tink]
e. maths : 77
a. maths : 50
chem : 73 [ ii tink]
phy : 47
geo : 75 [ ii guess]
history : dunn kw.

oh well. wateva le. anywae over liia0.
goiin to work even harder fer mid yr.

took piic wth class 2e 07'
miiss 2e an e ppl alot alot.
went back hm late wth ky after dance.
cause we chiongiin e maths file.
we mak mdm walk in out staff room alot of times.
feel soo guilty.
talk lots of crapp on e wae back.
miiss her in class. l0ls. her an her crapps.
she alwaes mak miie laugh. =]

l0ts of tiings happen bt no time blogg abt iit t'dae.
SHOUTOUT TO VEN: CHEER UP AND SMILE ALWAES!!
alwaes be dere fer u iif u need miie.

2008-02-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

hiiax.
went past bloggs.
found tiings reallii change.
why iis everytiing liik soo complicated??
wiish to go back to e time where everytiing iis simple.
even thou ppl keep sayiin miisses an all dat, how maniie reallii do mean iit.
ii kw ii mean iit when ii say iit.
ii really mean iit. cause ii really do miiss e old 2e.
even thou some of us r in diff classes le doesnt mean dat we can be as before.
iit jux need alittle bit of effort an gd frens..
ii believe dat most of us didnt change.
iit iis our way of tiinkiin which really changes everyting.
iif everyone doesnt believe that they r extra or dont belong here,
tiings will be back as before.
thou dere always would be changes.
cause change iis part of our lives.
ii kw ii m crapping.
bt ii feel ii need to write iit out to gt tiings out of miie mind.

t'dae at miie mum side e cousin hse.
miie siis hogg e com fer e whole dae.
ii only gt to use iit now.
bt den even when ii gt to use e com ii also dont kw wat ii should do.
cause really tired an feel lik slpiin.
goiin past those bloggs mak miie feel quite emo.
cause ii didnt realise dat tings had become lik dat.
SHOUTOUT TO KY: WE ALL L0VE YOU!!
CHEER UP!! =]
plae wth miie cousin.
she very cute.
hahas. now feeling emo.
can ii say dat ii feel lik cryiin??
cause seriously ii do.
ii gtg. miie cousin wann play e com.
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YR DAY 2!!

2008-02-07T14:47:00.000+08:00

happy lunar new year to everyone!!
hahas. decided to try and type in more readable eng.
yesterday went to watch kung fu dunk wth my cousins and sis.
e movie is okayy. quite nice in fact. nt as bad as e critics say lorrh.
especially if u r a jay fan.
cause wil c him in most of e movie.
he act cute and shuai and blurr.
soo damn cute!! ii m addicted to him nowadaes. more den before. =]
ii lik his new song dat he compose fer e movie.
song name is 周大俠. iif u watch e movie u would lik iit too. =D
anywae he shoot e basketball in dat time very shuai.
he soo accurate. hahas. an no doubles help him shoot de.
he insisted on doing it himself.
ii L0VE his songs, him an his basketball skill. l0ls.
even thou e critics say e movie very kua zhang.
bt iis kung fu action movie soo wat do u expect??
of course wil kua zhang wann marrh.
anywae ii c him in e basketball ii was lik feeliin lik standing up and say YAY!! loudly.
l0ls. those ppl behind me was also lik YES!! when he shoot in.
e basketball part really very nice. an is quite funny.
everyone was laughing at e funny parts.
feel like watching it again when e disc come out.
went back to my cousin hse to eat steamboat an play ps2.
race car wth miie siis an cousin.
yesterdae really quite fun. hahas.

t'dae is cu yi. at miie cousins hse to bai nian.
bt stuck upstairs at miie cousin bedroom playing e ps2 an watchin jay tings all e while.
watch some of his MVs, listen to his new movie song - 周大俠 an sign up as a member in jay-chou.net.
miie father say ii too addicted to him le and wanna ban miie fr everyting of his.
bt dunn tiink iit will happen. hahas.
alot of relatives came. most of them ii dunn even kw except that they come every yr.
this yr ang bao lesser den last yr. bt ii also dunn care how many ang baos ii have anywae de.
watch jay concert e disc and e sg concert on youtube.
e disc concert iis at taipei.
watching e sg concert on youtube really bring back alot of memories that night.
anywae gtg le.
need to bai nian to miie relatives who keep coming in. =]
ii c iif ii can blog tmrrow. iif ii manage to snatch e com fr miie cousins at miie mum side de first.
soo many cousin dere wanna plae com. nt lik here cause onliie miie an miie siis youngest.
buiie an happy lunar new yr dae 1!! =D

2008-01-30T17:43:00.000+08:00

hello!
soo long nv blogg le.
hahas. been busy an lazy.
busy wth sch wk, cca an blah blah.
lazy iis lazy to blogg an study.
soo tiis shuld be quite a long long post.
okayy. soo recent updates fer mth of Jan.

hmm.. yesterdae went cp wth ky an jas to eat at kfc.
guess who we saw?? hahas. jh, gerald, cg an chris.
we were lik how come they soo fast. hahas.
thot we walk quite fast le.
anywae e three of us were lik laughiin all e wae at some jokes an blah blah.
an also some stupid tings ii said.
dat ky keep laughiin non stop when after dance dat wk ii went to mr bean to buy 1 pearly an ii told e person at e counter ii want mr bean.
hahas. ii kw iis funniie bt dunn need keep laughiin de. l0ls. =]
she told jas yesterdae an they were lik laughiin at miie.
an then we were lik laughiin all e wae thru our meal.
den we told ky glinnis sezz ACG stands fer act cute gang an ky heard as act cute gay.
L0LS!! we were lik laughiin again an den sezz no, iis act cute gang.
no offense to cg. hahaas. iis glinnis thot of iit de anywae.
an ky fries gt wann blackened de. soo eew.

nowadays:
alot of tests. quite stress. bt ii cant seem to bring miieself to wk hard. no motivation.
slack everydae somemore. jux thnxful dat ii can stiil pass an do okayy in miie tests.
bt chem iis e most stress de. HELP!! hahas. =]

e past few wks:
hmm. went to Jay Chou concert on 18th January.
damn fun an high an verii verii verii nice!!
hahas. he sing live iis lik soo nice.
better den alot of singers.
an his costumes all verii de fanastic.
an he quite shuai in real person
ii was lik wow at each costume, him an his singiing.
his birthday also on dat dae an we sang birthdae song to him.
ii feel soo honoured.
everywann was lik screamiin his name an soo high lorrh. me included. =P
he was lik being encored 3 times lorrh before reallii end.
e concert end at abt 11 plus.
he plae e zither, drum an piano.
his dance also gt improved. an he damn talented.
an e piano damn nice!! iis crystal de. an transparent.
he plae e drum verii shuai an cool.
he realllii iis miie no.1 idol!!
miie cousin bought miie his world tour doll fer ii tiink 60 dollars. iis verii ex.
thnx loads sharon jie jie fer bringiin miie to his concert an fer everytiing!!

20th January went to botanic garden to dance fer e ppl, flowers, grass trees an bushes.
hahas. quite a wonderful experience danciin dere.
cause stage verii bigg an e ppl r nt verii near de.
verii fun also. hope gt more chance to go out an perform.
dance rawks!! deviilriinas rawks fereva!! L0VES e deviils!!

an of course iis dance study slp slack an study nowadaes.
oh ya, an crapp wth miie frens.
l0ls. cny comiin up le.
which means jay movie kung fu dunk iis also comiin out.
ii m soo goiin to watch iit.
HAPPiiE CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
earlii de. hahas. hope u all receive lots of ang baos. =]

2007-11-12T22:27:00.000+08:00

tiis post shall be all abt 1e 06' 2e 07'.
ii reallii miiss everywann..
seeiin e class blog an some ppl e blogskiins mak miie wanna cry..
no words can express iit ii guess..
even thou most of us r goiin back to e same class..
bt stiil iit would nt be e same again..
1e 06' & 2e 07' iis reallii e luckiiest tiing dat ever happen to miie..
thou dere iis alot of ups an downs,
we stiil manage to stae together..
united as a class..
ii reallii hope everywann would remember e happiie memoriies we had together an nv fergt them..
cause ii kw ii would remember them an wouldnt fergt iit ever..
miiss u ppl alot..
cya ppl at e comiin chalet..
fer those who cannt go or dunn wann..,
cya next yr an take cares.
ii would remember u all..

for 3e 0'8
let work hard together next yr..
we muz stae united as a class..

L0VES.
R E G I N A. <3<3

2007-11-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

here to blogg again..
hahas..
same class as most of 2e ppl..
quite happiie abt iit!!
cause stiil gt evan hui jas jl xe they all..
goiin 3e next yr..
saw e class blogg..
soo touched by e blogskiin an de msgs on e photos..
soo niice!! niice job to those who diid de skiin!!
class chalet iis iin 2 daes time..
lookiin forward to be wth u ppl again..
tiis daes nt eatiin an slpiin well..
dunn feel lik eatiin an cannt slp e whole niite..
mak miie soo tired.. hiiax..
no job no job..
jobless jobless..
hahas.. verii lame larrh..
cause dunn kw wat to blogg..
nothiin much to do..
kkayys.. shall stopp crappiin here..
niites everywann..
L0VES. <3<3